denny's notebooks
.toward the end of his life he was desperately looking for answers.
.how ,Layla wondered
why
...how could denny know that the Voices were
anything but
well,"hearing voices'
she studied his earlier Journals.
to see where
and when
and why
the search began
(because they're trying to drive me crazy mom...he would say banging his head once so hard on the kitchen table that he needed stitches)
she herself had told him that many suffered from 'what he had" and learned to live productive lives..
she
of course
couldnt tell him
about
the chips..
that she knew
why couldn't Denny just leave it alone
was it
The Search
that made
THEM turn?
or was it
something else
she knew enough
about "the process'
to know that
neuro modulation
involved
open access to
Denny's thoughts
"it had to ," they said...
back when THEY
were a clinic
before
before
they just stopped ansering the phone
denny was having fits
usually they called back
Layla rushed denny to the office
only to see
not only were they closed
but looking through an open curtain
-that every stich of furniture
every trace
of furniture ,medical equipment...was gone
dialing the number
panicking
denny holding his ears
screaming ,"make them stop ,make them stop!"
this time
she only heard
"the phone number you have dialed...
MAKE THEM PICK UP ,Layla thought MAKE THEM pick UP!
Layla was surprised to find that Denny did in fact
begin his "mission"
not with
the preposterous (that he'd been implanted .or possessed.or chosen)
but with the
mundane
denny had
in his autistic
obsessive fashion
researched all aspects of
mental disorders that caused hallucinations
denny .
who by
design
it seemed
could Not Tell a Lie
had
even used
snuck
one her credit cards
to
not stop
at generic "ready made" explanations of thought disorders
but instead
researched correlations between his predicament
with
periodicals from the best in the fields of
those practicing
studying or teaching Psychiatry ,psychology and neurology
but than
one day
the focus shifted
transcranial directed current stimulation
introcortical microstimulation
Brain Gate technology
Voice of God technology
Synthetic Telepathy
and
Layla thought he had spent most of
his time
playing video games
or watching porn
she couldnt tell him
that she
was responsible
she wondered
if denny had
had a
real thought of his own since
the
bio sensors ...were installed
she couldnt take the tantrums
she didnt know what to do
the drugs they gave him for autism ..
made him nearly incapacitated
the neuro modulation
promised
no biological side effects
as there would be a live mentor
all the time
hearing Denny',encoding and responding to Denny's every thought
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