" KNOCK IT OFF DUMBO...."Evan graphs.
Or what ya gonna do to me huh...what else can ya' possibly do...
I think and therefore interface to
Trying not to neutrally read too
much more difficult a task
that you dear reader.
(whom I reckon has not been "app-ed"
and made open to Tele- Present terror..
I think...and therefore interface ,"that my previous posting was
my just trying to "see" this
another's point of view...
but Evan cuts my synaptic sense-abilities off
seep-age of thought
inevitable in Mind to Mind To and Fro
is breaking a Gentleman's Agreement
these ventures in modern recording ,receiving and transmitting
I immediately think to Evan
that maybe ...I am writing some of this
to in fact
DO JUST THAT...as to attempt to STOP
in this Project...
"Oh Dumbo...we are THIS close to STOPPING your participation in this project..."
and wouldn't ya know
I hear a gunshot reverb through "my"
supposedly duplicitous dendrites-
(but I know...it wouldn't be THAT quick...
as one of the most precious Neural Reads
ProxyCy prides itself on attaining
is a drawn out re-usable Pain Perception
and Oh yes
they have quite, quite instilled me
various Tele-Present anecdotes
"Just How Many Ways" this might be triggered
and the trigger of a mere gun
a quick death
is nowhere to be found in their library
when I promise them .
if this is fact
I will force my mind to
The Purina Cat Chow jingles
I remember quite vividly from my youth
instead of "silently screaming neutrally with pain"
Evan Imparted that ,"at least you have not thought you would go "PSI in the sky with Jesus "
"ya know what I see when I see through your eyes?"
I see a Hack
pressing spell check every now and than...
he still sees
- a grubby whore
all them years ago-
sucking off anyone on Santa Monica Blvd who would buy ya a Happy Meal...
someone lay-ed out
on a dashboard
what you think got you into this mess......
You're a Human Cockroach
Sensing I don't know what "Gregor" is
he graphs me a
dust jacket of some
we were supposed to read in high school ...
"Metamorphosis"He Imparts,sighing ,like my Father used to do----like I'm some dumbass
that's how they see me? STILL..i can't help thinking .after all this?
I think of insects
and before I can stop myself
I think of a scene from
horrible horrible scene
that presumes the camera is SEEING through the heightened Green Grass to the vermin underneath
a hive of bugs
all over each other
the SOUND of the hive louder and louder
as... David Lynch ZOOMS closer and closer to /at The Swarm
EVAN ,my Tele -Presense "operator
my "main Mandler"
'THAT I'd better KNOCK IT OFF
these aggressively sickening IMAGES
that I "Know damn well"
are interfaced ...
.to my 'team"
Evan Imparts that's it's CRIMINAL to purposely THINK these things
and I try to remember
it was indeed
of some "safe zone"imagery before
(my current LIMITED VARIABLE
For No Reason
- the opening to "The Phil Donahue Show"
the fact that
is so good
for this type of JUMP CUT
of Good clean static distortion
to let EVAN clear his mind of
my Tele-Provised Provocation
EVAN sends me a clip of banality
from both our minds
from "Blue Velvet"
"The Lady Bug Picnic" 123.456.789.10,11,12....
on top of which
a "jist" of Brain Signal
based upon a collected "neural algorithm"
a milligram and a half of Xanax and
I taste upon EVAN's lips
throat and tongue
a double shot of Jamison's Scotch Whiskey
Evan Imparts," maybe I should watch some tv
or better yet have a wank
as he wants a bit of "strange" for
the Team is working on....that he graphs ,"might be worked into ....some future Tele-Presence 'Love Interest"
IF I DON't keep goin" round lookin all Spaced Like that...like that Odd Looking Duck from "Scanners"
He reminds me...as if I need reminding -
"we can easily make you appear drunk
put you in
you do------------for some unseen audience
"talking to your finger"
You're JUST talkin" to a boy named Tony who lives in your mouth
when we're trying to do something
some respect,,,some Grace....
some Tact...besides nobody any demographic
but your own quite
you're just showin' your age...
gone are the days of
uniform POP Culture referentials
ever notice Sonny
that there are more than 3 fuckin" stations
or are you so
it just - don't register.....
I feel Evan getting angry
it goes right through me...I taste
I feel instantly
like I wanna punch someone
or fuck something
"ya know ,"Evan graphs, I feel him appraise his own
Evan takes another shot of Scotch and thinks to me that-
"it might just be FUN for us ..if you got yourself in jail for a while...a change of scenery and mise en scene...just might do us all some good"
"I AM in jail
OR something ," I graph
and I see the now all too familiar logo of Parasol Pictures
Indis O' Say's