(2)"what the hell does this have to do with anything " the Mandlers graph," what does some guy not really involved in our narrative going to Washington DC to whine about being told and shown OUR story have to do with anything at all? So much does this little aside not have to do with anything of much meaning that maybe this recurrent element in our themes should just be cut out of the picture altogether?..How much MORE! do I have to keep erasing you ...and hurting you to make you understand ..YOU yourself are of no importance to the work your team is doing at all..The manner in which you were raised ABSOLUTELY! as it concerns your formatting ONLY for this story..Many were raised very very close to how you were to get the same result ...for all you know many raised "Rainy" style are writing the same damn story at the same time..Do you understand?...THIS is why we keep you away from "real life" as much as possible because THIS is what happens when idiot here decides HE MATTERS and not all he was born for was OUR input ...and for his "team " thru interface
needs to study OUR input
as it plays thru him
as it might a player piano
how our induced sound ,vision and induced fluctuation in mood and what not via brain computer interface
"make" the human organism respond ...think
just as one might place a lab rat in a cage
starve the lab rat and than place a potato altered with GMO
and one not
effects the cellular structure and over all health of the lab rat
and so it is with YOU
and how induced "reality' ..induced thought
your notions of reality
EVERT DAMN TIME YOU VEER OFF TRACK ASSUMING any information besides
what we impart
has anything to do with this study
you f*ck up the years ,the decades of laborious work
containing what input what triggers were
placed into not only your childhood
with trauma based scoring for pedantic Reverse Brain Engineering
studies and so forth ...and
Cue/Trigger Imprints.." Tru Christie calm sdown ..and I feel the calm down
the alteration in Hzs upon my synapses.
I mean INPUT that does not pertain
to this Project ...
such as this rather tiresome and really quite dangerous FOR YOUR SAKE need to
try to undo the very costly and time consuming work it took to raise you
go into fugue stats and thus compartmentalize
SO YOU MIGHT BE OF USE TO US
puts you in danger as Redundancy
screws up what we're trying to understand here..has nothing to do with the project at all.."
as if to annunciate or fortify the warning
see little cat heads..
temporarily fleetingly upon my visual cortex and thus in a holographic fashion
Tru Christie graphs
-why are you not writing this down
the little cat heads are not attached to no little cat bodies..
NOR are they cartoon like..
but meanly realistic..
so Tru Christie can have me type about the cat faces
even I can tell
will read as disturbed..
ahhhh ..I get it ..
Tru is trying to lead me to safety concerning this documenting of my tether
with this technology
'you....coming across at totally mental ! " Tru graphs ,"Is my way of keeping you alive idiot ..."
Tru had graphed in the past when
bits of self will would unfortunately over shadow the need to stay on track
concerning me being
the rat being fed GMOs to see the way GMO runs through the rat body
concerning me being fed BCI (brain computer interface ) to see(for my "Team ") to see how BCI runs through my brain and inner monologue
"this isn't a fucking Game ...go paint some disturbed artwork.. " Tru graphs
Meaning the odd myriad of free floating cat faces ?
I mean this was some of the instruction
I got years ago concerning how to make Outsider Art.
from my team
free floating ..this and that
and I go look up secondary symptoms of schizophrenia..
to try to remind myself of the thinking style I am to
project both on canvas and on paper
to "seal the deal" that I just be "crazy"
and not documenting what 'The New Way" wants to do to "Crazy..and so called Dissident /degenerate sub species of people"
in the near future with silent ,invisible
I go to a site that I sometimes use to re read academic texts that define "the essence of dementia praecox in both syntax and sketches .."
"Bitch ," TruChristie graphs ,"I am giving you synthetic symptoms of f*cking schizophrenia .. with the damn free floating cat heads . a lot more vivid than any scholarly online thesis .." Tru graphs
"I am well aware of that ," I graph ,insulted that I do not by now know the backspace
of rectifying my exposure ...
my self will
(in this case going to Washington dc)
hoping this (< )
MGM like version of VOICE OVER schizo /split personhood in this jotting /entry
helps to re assert myself as simply deranged ...