they stopped calling me Dumbo..they will give me a new name so I don't regress..i graph that i like the name Reggie

I browse through

Gary Rainy's first book-" Inway to Enway"

I keep a copy of it under

my bed.

 

the cover page is burned.

I get angry at Neuronuats

and have thrown many

copies either across the room

or in the trash

 

they

treat' Inway to The Enway"

like it's the Koran  or something

it's unreadable

but Gary wrote not so it would be read

but GLEANED

I cannot explain it better

 

but sometimes I page through it

trying to find a dollop of sense

 

I correct my thoughts.

this glib way I have used as a defense

that has become an inadvertent shield

to not let Good energy in.

 

in fact there is an awful lot sense to it

I rag on "inway" like it's  Mein Kamf

but Gary Rainy subdued many of his initial presupposition

he was a reasonable man

and was raised in the 50's

and confessed he took along all the baggage of his times and HIS childhood

and of course those notions were

in the first addition

Gary stated that he was quite young and quite foolish when he wrote the initial text

the more he learned about himself and science the more

"laid back"he became towards

mankind..

although, he stated ,A Ruiner will always Ruin ..it is in his nature..

but even Ruiners can play a part

if they

accept their tendencies and try to

confess

these faults first to them selves

and than to a higher up

who might also have had" ruinatious"

preoccupations before they themselves were

impressed upon by a Bettor

one cannot get Bettor without first accepting that some people in the world are better than you

for instance I cannot shoot a basket like an NBA player

but perhaps I can study his techniques and

become a better shot

I am not as handsome as my favorite movie star but if I get a good haircut and use weights

I will be better than I am now.and so on

I am not a very good person

but if I realize I am not

and "hang around " people who ARE

some of their traits might rub off on me

 

my first mentor was Susan

she gave me the kinship bracelet

Susan mentored me through my initial

sessions

and persuaded me to hang in there

 

it's a rough program

based  on

replenishing or finding one's

psychic energies

both the Good

and the Bad

that build up in us all

 

for instance all the worry and anxiety

your mother experienced

in the womb became part of you

like wise

our DNA and genetic make up have been passed down

through years and years

we still retain Neanderthal traits

that simply do not "go" with

being the best type of person one can be

there are metaphors galore for this

removal of traits we do not need

and now there are quicker ways around

self betterment

Gary Rainy always believed that man was evolving

and thought

of man something like a bonsai tree that needed stilts and

guidance to

become

more

than it might have been

 

a Ruiner

would say "Hey stop pruning that bonsai tree.quit toying with it"

 

 a Bettor would say

 

stay away from my Garden

stay away from my tree

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