the smoked stimulant tests are actually remnants of the MERH CAT days when I believed (or was lead to believe) the Brain Computer Interface was 'gifted" upon me because I was being trained to be a spy .
Before you judge me that only an idiot would be sucked into such a belief system you must realize that not only is one suddenly made aware their thoughts are being answered back in real time by a voice not their own is quite desperate to believe this intrusion is based on something worthy of such intrusion in the first place.
Upon hearing a voice not based upon either one's thought style nor the 'sound' of one's inner monologue one naturally assumes one is being recorded by either listening devices or cameras or both .
No. I did not tear apart the walls ,lamps ,lights and so forth as one sees many a person in such arrears does in films and television
but I assume i did appear as frantic and panicked as one usually does not see except as depicted on TV
and of course this reaction was also both maximized and tempered by my assumption I was being viewed and indeed scrutinized by people who had spoken to me in a most unsual way that seemed to bypass my ears entirely
certainly i thought this could not really be happening
i had neither done a drug or drink to encourage such hallucinations
Nor had I prayed to something or someone above the clouds nor beneath the ground to entice such a talking to
but talked it did
nonstop in fact
and although I covered my ears
the sound of what ,of whom
I did not know and still cannot be sure of