Monday, April 6, 2015

only the echoes of my mind

So it is the old meat after all, no matter how old. Because if memory exists outside of the flesh it wont be memory because it wont know what it remembers so when she became not then half of memory became not and if I become not then all of remembering will cease to be. --Yes he thought Between grief and nothing I will take grief.”
― William Faulkner, The Wild Palms [If I Forget Thee, Jerusalem] 



"the story" the long winded tale .
I perhaps never should  have begun...had slowly begun taking a new slant...away and away from my attempting to explain THE SEEING of things nobody else sees
and THE HEARING of things nobody else hears
the technology
of it
but the men and women behind it..so close to me.Too close.
Close always physically in the wrong way
Close to hit or poke or press down.
Touch ,in itself ,to this day I recoil from like a ball bug.Like a turtle

what does a turtle think of in it's shell
he thinks about not being a turtle
not being such easy prey
but maybe dreams of being of the prey who forced him once again and again into the darkness of himself
in that shell

but if that turtle is lucky
a small light of mind
projects itself inside the dark shell
of the same anywhere but here visions that are Tv and cinema.

The story I  perhaps never should  have begun.
nor would have if I knew it would bring me back HERE
to THERE
to that house.
to THEM
who forced me like that turtle to disappear
time and time again.
like a turtle not just going into it's shell
but into some shell of it's mind separate
from it's "turtle-ness"it's "being -ness"


as I began
KNOWING the reasons for the IMBUE
were all based not on things at all from my adulthood
but SIGHT and SOUND ...and the many ASSOCIATIONS and CUES (provocations)
that these SYMBOLS
"seemingly " aimed directly at my INNER SIGHT
and that LITTLE VOICE we all have inside our heads
that nobody should nor ever HEAR

but of course this is not so...
of course this is not so that NOBODY knows (nor could know) what TAPES and RECORDS
play between our ears

for much ,too much of our inner monologue
and RPM and Tone and Pitch
of our inner monologue ..-that little voice
was pre -recorded.---- Stylized and sung to us by those whose job it was
sing to us
shape us with Sound and Vision
and the feelings and love ..or moreso PAIN
of these renditions

and there is a group.
I cannot quite give  a name
that my WARDS followed (I cannot quite call them parents. For to do so..
                             would imply to you that those who raised me
                             were there
                             to serve as your parents were.
                             to protect them...and teach them the right things
                             so they might sense the world around them..a version
                             of family -was good....and safe
my WARDS however
had an entirely different reason
for making my childhood
the terror it was
on purpose
                            to make me vacant
                            to make me "me-less'
\and therefore
useful
to the cause.----Cole Cohen 2013
                       
 (2)
...In the mid 1960's (before the scandal with "Safety in Umbers") Gary Rainy and Alliance Pictures were forefront in sophisticated sound and emoting techniques such as non localized sound
to be raised
on televised imagery...
and surrogate
parental "styling"
inverting
Real Time
interaction
with
a more consistent ,warmer technological
interaction
of Tele -Presence
placed parental representational "figures "of authority purposely
cold and unstable
vs
neutral 'starting place"of the
child's surrogate -the always so warm- TV set*

Harry F. Harlow, “Love in Infant Monkeys,” 1959
]
After long periods of complete isolation and maternal deprivation, which produced disturbed behaviors, Harry Harlow experimented with monkey “group psychotherapy.”
The first love of the human infant is for his mother. . No doubt such compunctions, along with the obvious obstacles in the way of objective study, have hampered experimental observation of the bonds between child and mother. For this purpose we contrived two surrogate mother monkeys. One is a bare welded-wire cylindrical form surmounted by a wooden head with a crude face. In the other the welded wire is cushioned by a sheathing of terry cloth. We placed eight newborn monkeys in individual cages, each with equal access to a cloth and a wire mother. Four of the infants received their milk from one mother and four from the other. . . .
The monkeys in the two groups drank the same amount of milk and gained weight at the same rate. But the two mothers proved to be by no means psychologically equivalent. . . . Records made automatically showed that both groups of infants spent far more time climbing and clinging on their cloth-covered mothers than they did on their wire mothers. . . .

preemptive to first introduce associations through artificial device. Especially because Rainy Children future champions of modern thought were primarily to think in terms of symbols in a more binary capacity.
which would make these Rainy children "state of the art" concerning their interactions with foreseen technological
•age 2 the mirrors were replaced by face time with a 3 dimensional projected cloud over the toddlers crib that would sometimes "smile"sound would also intermittently placate the child usually pitched to a soothing 25 mega hertz.sounding much like Rainy himself.
the child's interactions with these gentle vibrations were enough to move
the Rainy Children into a pre school environment. All but a few
high functioning enough to sit thru class
the addition of an "imaginary friend "would be added during the child's 4th year,
synthesized beginnings Rainy explained also made the initiation of LORE almost seamless. LORE was just one of the reasons for this technological "hands off" approach to early rearing. LORE involved quickening the child's link to televised indicators that would reinforce their kinship with the Rainy clan. Specific words and entire story lines,features,and programs that would not be introduced into the mainstream for 20 or 30 years were assimilated into the already fragmented collective minds of the Clan.A head start ,a heads up to The New Way. Besides the smiles of the 3d clouds and comfort of the omni present sound devices. Key pieces of pop Culture Cues .LORE relied extensively on Rainy keeping his and his followers feet always in the mainstream .always a rainy follower "in the loop" both in Washington dc and more so Hollywood USA .for it was of key importance that the Symbiotic Cues were presented by key players in the industry (in code,non coded, in plain .sight or otherwise)in tandem with the SYNTHESIZED BEGINNINGS program. The indicator/cue could sometimes be as simply as an art director placing a light green bed spread in a Key spot on a sight specific TV program.sometimes it was just a film's title. Sometimes an entire storyline or sometimes a phrase(know what i mean jellybean?)that would instigate a significant cerebral response in children raised Rainy that cemented their faith in The New Way,much like a visual of a mother making cookies could bring a rush emotion to a non Rainy child.a Green Kite introduced 5 seconds after a thunder clap could bring a Rainy child to momentary joy.
{ Gary Rainy,founder of the Neuronautic's Movement wrote several short stories for Rainy Day Magazine ,an adventure sci fi magazine for boys)based on his access to "secret technologies "he implied that certain technological advancements were kept under wraps and released in small measure to the world at large especially the televised image, primarily how TV was primarily developed as a weapon not entertainment. He says that it was about this time that he came under fire from "the powers that be"and for a time moved to Mexico privately said he thought "the powers that be" we envious that he and his clan had "beaten them to the punch by quite literally hard wiring humans to respond in synch with codified television and the creation of Key Popular Culture events in advance to trigger all sorts of economic and societal shifts"
is there any other way?"he bragged always with a phone in his hand to the script writers at the fledgling Alliance Pictures .
the child's interactions with these gentle vibrations were enough to move
the Rainy Children into a pre school environment. All but a few high functioning enough to sit thru class
in his notes he concluded that by 2007 the technological advancements would be such
the addition of an "imaginary friend "would be added during the child's 4th year
a composite of Gary Rainy himself. as troubadour, playmate and confessor

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