COLE. WEEK 85

 

long ago

I stopped living

a life.meeting new people..doing new things

I suppose I am now what one might call a hermit..

I suppose many like me are or become isolated...

they lose jobs friends family

connection to anything

but the Mentors

they hear what I hear they see what I see

they feel nothing of what I feel

and I feel so little anymore

the mentors care little for feelings

only

brain mining

reverse brain engineering...some call it

I am in a cult only in that separatist methods have been used to make a Proxy relinquish one's ego to the Group

the group seems more concerned with business and research and findings and discovery

no longer does the interface play games about

making me more.

fostering potentials..

I am a camera

I am a lab rat

I am doomed

yet a lab rat has a reason to awaken

if only for a food pellet or water.

...but these tiny mammals who have been

used too long

soon do not bother

they change

they don't move.

they die

my every encounter .My every Cognitive or Emotional Response to situations

nothing more to my mentors than some sick TV show

 

 

I drink.

I pop pills

I smoke crack

snort heroin

anything to muffle my mind

to all but destroy it

before it becomes fodder

for "testing"

 

for all extensive purposes I am insane

only Proxy Cyber and myself

know the truth

 

Gary Rainy's ideas and breakthrough book "Neuronautics"

and "Inway to the Enway"

are the Mein Kamf of The New Way

 

I pause.

waiting for a response .

a zing through my hippocampus for thinking "wrong" about the Process

the leader..

The New Way

I get almost more frightened sensing nothing

 

 

I used to think "who did this to me?"

who

"apped" me.

and "why"

what did I do..

 

some adolescent ravings on line about the country..some mean spirited rant against "The Man"

when I was posting non stop .drunk..at 2 in the morning ...not sure if I wrote to be someone

...a writer? or because I cared...

my girlfriend was the one who went to the protests ..signed petitions..

I just wanted a by line...

 

or was I apped for no reason

wrong place right demographic.

oh the things I have since read.  about human testing

supposedly halted.

NEVER AGAIN

I watch president Clintons apology for MK Ultra and laugh

if they only knew how ultra

testing would become

 

only a few people are creating A.,I and Immersive Reality

a handful

imagine less than 100 people literally creating the new world..

they don't call it political

only

methodical...

a brain scan that methodically collects one's neural data

and weighs a person's worth to society based

on

science-ideology TruGenic's

and where one falls on the "scale" of Being..preposterous ...but true

and since nobody believes this system  nor the technology is already here

there is no one to stop it

the better they get at it.

the more sure they are

that the gods themselves sanction

the "reads" of one's mind...

no longer private

 

at this point I feel like a Reactor

as my "reactive" and Automatic Thoughts

respond only with aggression

to "the church of the poisoned mind"

 

the whole thing turned on me

the deeper the

encoding went

my mind  retreated or sputtered out "sick things" like a squid spewing ink

I was accused of deliberately mocking my Mentors

deliberating

transmitting thoughts that would hurt them

I countered that The Reads were driving me insane

they countered that "by now" I should be used to it

will we really soon live in a world where one is used to their every thought being read..

and dissected...

 

the period of time I became that hostile

I was locked up..

many Neuronautic members work in these places ,these hospitals ..although they abhor Psychiatry

they made sure I was not given meds..

to tranquilize me.

and destroy a read

I was hospitalized as punishment.

for my thoughts. against

OPEN MIND TECHNOLOGY and Gary Rainy's TruGenic Re-Assimilation

the hospital was torture

I was put in restraints

by smiling wards who had "the look" that said "oh yes am one of them.."

and they knew why I was here.

I was here because I was deemed "weird" now

for my dangerous ,"deliberate" thoughts toward my Mentors,toward Neuronautics..toward the new system..

one of the tactics Neuronautics uses to rid a "member" of their "weirdness"

is a strategy called

Shaming and Mirroring

 

the term they use is "Reflective  Re-Organization"

the brain computer interface  set to play back to me my own "sickness"

24/7 as if the interface were a tape ,a loop of oddness.and the very worst sickening scenarios..

one begs for a return to one on one mentorship

not The Loop.that they threaten may never end