I get more and more frightened
.my life which had been small enough.
an artist's life can be
so small
so away from the norm
and people whether they like it or not are measured
upon
certain norms
the norm is driving a car
working a nine to five job
having or acquiring some type of home and family to live in this home
and things like that
if one lacks too many
of these requirements
although it is not stated directly
one is in serious trouble of finding themselves
a target of Study
often
an artist
brings unwarranted attention to himself by so much wanting or needing attention
often the artist is young and unaware of the consequences
of how his "work" may be seen
0r how his work may be categorized
for instance as
a jpeg
online.
most artists create and foresee their work in a gallery that's very space
says,at least to some degree
I am alright
however when the work is seen
on line or as a photo ..
and if one is not an artist or" appreciator" or collector
but a searcher
for things that may seem
and may be
"questionable"
one may find themselves in a very NOT alright situation
as I have stated before ..oddness
of any kind that is not within the schema of "I understand this type of strange" therefore this type of "strange" is acceptable.
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" remember when everyone was painting their kitchen nooks neon green
chartreuse
I think it's called
the color of bright katydids? and this seemed to be a fine idea
an artist ..besides painting must also
be
likable
if he is to "get ahead" I was told in LA
networking//they called it
Asperger's and talking of nano particles
I soon found out is
the opposite of networking
"more butterfly net///
no working not working
can you not just go bACK to being what you were///
"HOW I SAY
with The APPS can I return to what I was or am
the very point of the Apps and Cybernetic Steering are to NOT return to what one was but become what
they
prefer..
they know I would explain what is the right way
and what is the wrong way
a friend would say I was in EST I was iN The Forum I was in Kabbalah ..I know about a group mind
NO I would say
you do not know how far it has come for some groups
you do NOT know.
you do not know what they can DO to you if you are against it
or talk against it
"THAN shut Up about it"please please ;listen to these freaky MENTORs or whatever they put into your kool aid or cerebral lobe and give us all peace ....
I have lost so many friends since
"it"
the "it"
...{has slipped into the art,,,i.e people wearing bio sensors conducting clandestine wireless communications with subjects...and really has no business on even a small wall in the hallway...the subject too "odd" and untimely as if I am drawing or painting otherworldly mythical moonbeams and unicorns and robots or something or other..
my old work sells still
but friends who take me along to meet either dealers
or "networked" by them potential buyers.
give me a stink eye ixnay on the nano...and "your theories of intraneural communications ...in fact why don't you just sit in the car for now ..I think you wore that sweater last time we met so and so..the way it goes with
buying inhaled stimulants or 'rock' on the street or in the many cars
that come around after a
phone call
numbers I have thrown away smashed phones to extricate...
just seem to show up on my phones
my new phone again and again as if by magic or
cuz I run into "sidecar" runners wondering where you been.."
lost my phone .
here..i got a new phone number...give me a call..
after a berating or intense "audit" or neural collection or as my Dr might say "feeling of such" lately and pastly I would invariably reach for the phone and say
"I got 60" and then it all starts again...
relief.
and more fear..
as I now know or believe there's a switch about concerning the qualities of "rock" sometimes almost 80 percent or so cocaine
but after it is you making the mid morning mid day calls
the quality slips to some variance of what is IN the "rock"
a little bit of meth a little bit of god only knows what is in the plasticine ..that one smokes anyway
irregardless of that stinking sinking feeling
that one has paid good money for
and once again ruined any semblance of "sobriety" for some bad meth baking soda and who knows what other sticky stinky ingredient that seems to drip down the pipe rather than burn quite burn..
does the "rock" make the "voices less or more..
pleasantly or
coldly (concerning my link to the interface) once again one can careless...and the progressive damage to my respiratory system ,mind etc...
out the window ...as the sheer awfulness of the smoking of the "strange brew" that offers more fear and very little high
provokes a "dumbo" like me to smoke the "poison " faster and call the dealer in advance to get some more..
some more of "the right stuff"hopefully
none the less the downtime...habit and extracurricular of the smoking of so called inhaled stimulants ...ex[plains my downfall
rather more safely than
my Z"do you hear what I see .do you see what I see..do you know what I know.."
when people ask
"what happened to you..you are not the same"
the forced grin and my greenish teeth and that smell that accompanies all 3 of my "day jackets" says it all and there is if only for a time no reason or no willing (as the stimulants as I have mentioned make me un naturally still and mute...)
my mother as well is satisfied.
oh he's simply using again...
(and I like him this thin)..and maybe this thanksgiving we won't all have to be schooled in nano technology and mind augment practices in southern California
as sure as she is about the stimulants being the cause of my New Way of seeing hearing and being
is as sure as I am that they have absolutely nothing whatsoever to do with "IT" except to slow my neural baseline to a level of "why bother" concerning mentorship
do not get me wrong
the mentors hold back any kindness and show me only the most
horrid imagery
yet this disengagement
and vacillation of neutrality
I am sure
gives
the Mandlers respite
from my racing mind
deemed both agitatious .deviant
and ever more sick
the strange cruel drawing they cannot believe actually sell have stopped.
in this regard
we are both...winning
as a rule .neuronauts do not believe in psychiatry
and prefer that I use street drugs ..than pills deliberately created to offer disingenuous reads ..such as benzodiazepine
which I am on now
taking quite a bit more than instructed..
so that in addition to not caring what EVAN and Company at Proxy Cyber labs think about what I am thinking about (for benzoes ..ativans xanex...offer only a hiss of thought..an unreliable brain map or temperature of "the soul" within the "client"
I am referred to as many things by my mentors
a client
a subject
a husk
a sicko
a pioneer.
New Microchip Can Mimic How a Human Brain Thinks
August 2013
.my life which had been small enough.
an artist's life can be
so small
so away from the norm
and people whether they like it or not are measured
upon
certain norms
for instance
here in this country .where I just happened to have been born is this wrong to write..?is it wrong to consider that 's as far as my allegiance goes..(especially after having been found less than All American Boi and what not by my "takers"(my art according to Evan Rainy displays a decay of some kind
as if the "things" I draw and paint are Rorschach Neural Reads ,pre bio sensor tests.... indicative of one who must be "watched"
what is funny artists
especially
artists considered Outsider Artists which means they are not only
limited to a rather solitude and separate day to day occupation (if you call staring at blank walls and reams of paper ,next "defacing" their cleanness with markings and drip drops of color and shape an occupation
much less a demographic that requires
survey or encroachment on their mind
(there is nothing there I would claim and graph to mentors searching and goading explanation
trust me if I could DO something else.
I would
half of my punitive interfaces have been
I swear it is so
through simple boredom
on those whose job
it is to WATCH
STUDY
Characterize
data-fie
all that seems
eschew
and or ODD
most of the people we "go to war " with seem ODD in dress and
or "style"
I sometimes wonder if some of them .over there
simply wore the same brands and logos as us
how much harder it would be to "make them pay"
for being different.on another side.
if their baring of being and hAIR CUTS
EMulATED OUR OWN
"spare me" The Voice says
interrupting my internal stirrings
and words that make up these stirrings
words that I know are being recording and encoded into language that my Mentors keep on disk and Decalogue hard drive files
...and cut the green peace ploy,"
a Hippie you are not
(it has been burned into me that all I care about is myself ...that my basic instinct,the one they are trying to cure for a more equivocal interface,is pathologically both narcissistic and sociopathic..
Science -ideological based Neuronauts .nor GaRY OR eVAN rAINY BUY "this Autism shit"
interrupting my internal stirrings
and words that make up these stirrings
words that I know are being recording and encoded into language that my Mentors keep on disk and Decalogue hard drive files
...and cut the green peace ploy,"
a Hippie you are not
(it has been burned into me that all I care about is myself ...that my basic instinct,the one they are trying to cure for a more equivocal interface,is pathologically both narcissistic and sociopathic..
Science -ideological based Neuronauts .nor GaRY OR eVAN rAINY BUY "this Autism shit"
EVERYBODY KNOWS YOU CARE NOTHING ABOUT THESE THINGS
IT'S IN YOUR nEURAL DISKS
1,288 OF THEM
a vOICE .
(SUNDAYS MY MIND TO MIND MENTORS..HAVE OFF...THIS IS PURE a.i remote neural monitoring
IN CASE I STEAL A kIT kAT OR SOMETHING FROM THE AM/PM
just the same
the pulsations feel "Rainy" and severe
like a mean old matron violently sewing and stitching in a corner of a room
a watchful eye on you
and blame blame on YOU
for every needle prick or
misweave
..."now LOOK what You Made Me do''has always been The Way the New Way Operates..
..is it wrong to perhaps think that I may have been better off having been born in a place less worried about brands or alpha dog stylized movie stars or catchphrase contagion .,.in some made up city in my my mind with slate roofs and less bright colored coats...a more serious place..where people maybe laugh less as the misfortunes of others...and being a "man" can mean slouching or speaking softly and being attracted to others such as this..,does it surprise you that moreso and moreso I sense my mentors are of the Cowboy/Bruce Willis Way yeeeeeee haaaa bang a gong badda bing badda badda badda swing persuasion
working a nine to five job
having or acquiring some type of home and family to live in this home
and things like that
if one lacks too many
of these requirements
although it is not stated directly
one is in serious trouble of finding themselves
a target of Study
often
an artist
brings unwarranted attention to himself by so much wanting or needing attention
often the artist is young and unaware of the consequences
of how his "work" may be seen
0r how his work may be categorized
for instance as
a jpeg
online.
most artists create and foresee their work in a gallery that's very space
says,at least to some degree
I am alright
however when the work is seen
on line or as a photo ..
and if one is not an artist or" appreciator" or collector
but a searcher
for things that may seem
and may be
"questionable"
one may find themselves in a very NOT alright situation
as I have stated before ..oddness
of any kind that is not within the schema of "I understand this type of strange" therefore this type of "strange" is acceptable.
and
they
drove
me.(him)
mad with sound and vision
he didn't know how .he didn't know why
they heard his mind .the read his thoughts
he didn't know how .he didn't know why
find me.help me .
find me help me
he would think when he could
but he knew these thoughts
weren't going far enough into the heaven's for anyone to
care
Only they heard his sobs and cries ..stop stop..
and THEY didn't care at all
it was part of The Process to break down one's beliefs in such silly things as g-d and divine Intervention
The New Way was to be my Intervention
The New Way and Psycho and Neuro- Tronic monitoring and mentoring were REAL in a way that g-d simply was not
" remember when everyone was painting their kitchen nooks neon green
chartreuse
I think it's called
the color of bright katydids? and this seemed to be a fine idea
an artist ..besides painting must also
be
likable
if he is to "get ahead" I was told in LA
networking//they called it
Asperger's and talking of nano particles
I soon found out is
the opposite of networking
"more butterfly net///
no working not working
can you not just go bACK to being what you were///
"HOW I SAY
with The APPS can I return to what I was or am
the very point of the Apps and Cybernetic Steering are to NOT return to what one was but become what
they
prefer..
they know I would explain what is the right way
and what is the wrong way
a friend would say I was in EST I was iN The Forum I was in Kabbalah ..I know about a group mind
NO I would say
you do not know how far it has come for some groups
you do NOT know.
you do not know what they can DO to you if you are against it
or talk against it
"THAN shut Up about it"please please ;listen to these freaky MENTORs or whatever they put into your kool aid or cerebral lobe and give us all peace ....
I have lost so many friends since
"it"
the "it"
...{has slipped into the art,,,i.e people wearing bio sensors conducting clandestine wireless communications with subjects...and really has no business on even a small wall in the hallway...the subject too "odd" and untimely as if I am drawing or painting otherworldly mythical moonbeams and unicorns and robots or something or other..
my old work sells still
but friends who take me along to meet either dealers
or "networked" by them potential buyers.
give me a stink eye ixnay on the nano...and "your theories of intraneural communications ...in fact why don't you just sit in the car for now ..I think you wore that sweater last time we met so and so..the way it goes with
buying inhaled stimulants or 'rock' on the street or in the many cars
that come around after a
phone call
numbers I have thrown away smashed phones to extricate...
just seem to show up on my phones
my new phone again and again as if by magic or
cuz I run into "sidecar" runners wondering where you been.."
lost my phone .
here..i got a new phone number...give me a call..
after a berating or intense "audit" or neural collection or as my Dr might say "feeling of such" lately and pastly I would invariably reach for the phone and say
"I got 60" and then it all starts again...
relief.
and more fear..
as I now know or believe there's a switch about concerning the qualities of "rock" sometimes almost 80 percent or so cocaine
but after it is you making the mid morning mid day calls
the quality slips to some variance of what is IN the "rock"
a little bit of meth a little bit of god only knows what is in the plasticine ..that one smokes anyway
irregardless of that stinking sinking feeling
that one has paid good money for
and once again ruined any semblance of "sobriety" for some bad meth baking soda and who knows what other sticky stinky ingredient that seems to drip down the pipe rather than burn quite burn..
does the "rock" make the "voices less or more..
pleasantly or
coldly (concerning my link to the interface) once again one can careless...and the progressive damage to my respiratory system ,mind etc...
out the window ...as the sheer awfulness of the smoking of the "strange brew" that offers more fear and very little high
provokes a "dumbo" like me to smoke the "poison " faster and call the dealer in advance to get some more..
some more of "the right stuff"hopefully
none the less the downtime...habit and extracurricular of the smoking of so called inhaled stimulants ...ex[plains my downfall
rather more safely than
my Z"do you hear what I see .do you see what I see..do you know what I know.."
when people ask
"what happened to you..you are not the same"
the forced grin and my greenish teeth and that smell that accompanies all 3 of my "day jackets" says it all and there is if only for a time no reason or no willing (as the stimulants as I have mentioned make me un naturally still and mute...)
my mother as well is satisfied.
oh he's simply using again...
(and I like him this thin)..and maybe this thanksgiving we won't all have to be schooled in nano technology and mind augment practices in southern California
as sure as she is about the stimulants being the cause of my New Way of seeing hearing and being
is as sure as I am that they have absolutely nothing whatsoever to do with "IT" except to slow my neural baseline to a level of "why bother" concerning mentorship
do not get me wrong
the mentors hold back any kindness and show me only the most
horrid imagery
yet this disengagement
and vacillation of neutrality
I am sure
gives
the Mandlers respite
from my racing mind
deemed both agitatious .deviant
and ever more sick
the strange cruel drawing they cannot believe actually sell have stopped.
in this regard
we are both...winning
as a rule .neuronauts do not believe in psychiatry
and prefer that I use street drugs ..than pills deliberately created to offer disingenuous reads ..such as benzodiazepine
which I am on now
taking quite a bit more than instructed..
so that in addition to not caring what EVAN and Company at Proxy Cyber labs think about what I am thinking about (for benzoes ..ativans xanex...offer only a hiss of thought..an unreliable brain map or temperature of "the soul" within the "client"
I am referred to as many things by my mentors
a client
a subject
a husk
a sicko
a pioneer.
New Microchip Can Mimic How a Human Brain Thinks
Susanne Posel
Researchers from the University of Zurich, have created neuromorphic chips that can mimic the way a human brain can process information in real-time.
Giacomo Indiveri, professor at the Institute of Neuroinformatics (INI), of the University of Zurich and ETH Zurich, the goal of the team was to emulate the properties of biological neurons and synapses directly on microchips.
The neural data extracted by introducing something researchers at Berkely call “neural dust” which facilitates mind reading ,the first step toward encoding thoughts ,intentions and emotions into a language that a computer can understand and "loop in" upon as what might be called a mind to mind.mind /computer overlap or perhaps a full over ride over-ride of a human temporal lobe for a waking dream,a precursor to Artificial Reality.
Neural dust consists of particles no more than 100 micrometers across that would be millions of bio sensors capable of measuring electrical activity in neutrons, these sensors could be attached to the “tips of fine wire arrays” that could be inserted directly into brain tissue.
enablinb a human brain – machine interface to create a mechanical “telepathy”.
The Royal Society, in conjunction with Academy of Medical Sciences, British Academy and Royal Academy of Engineering came together this month to discuss the potentials, opportunities and challenges of augmentation technologies...........
.
Philadelphia is a rather large town.filled with people walking,driving bicycling to and fro and fro and to.here to there and back again...
I know about as many people as I did a decade ago ..
actually I have lost a few friends or acquaintances/
although I write of my interfaces with OTHERS or what "better,more socialized or informed people" call VOICES...
in addition to just being quantified as appearing often visibly "crazy"
(talking to "myself...over excited,keyed ...my eyes either else where ..(and thus my head and thoughts...but oh I know where they go....)
or my demeanor agitated seemingly "not in step " with what is going on around me..
(the people going to and fro etc...)
but with what I SEE
what better people than me .educated people call visual hallucinations and never .
just never
simply occipital over rides of my visual cortex
a prominent function of my IMPASSE 2612 embedded bio sensors
I picture them sometimes
when I see a cluster of dust in the day light
thanks to my dr
I often now try to picture my modified self
my "steered" co-opted existence as a good thing...I visualize my "neural dust" as golden sparkling" wonderment
aiding my frontal lobe and amygdala to spacious. Audacious High Functionality
"an Upgrade" my Dr chances ...
he is cautious for he Knows
how easy it is to get over excited about a Cybernetic Existence which often feels
like my existence is not quite mine at all but moreso my Mentors playing that old board game I used to own
Operation (when you mess up and remove an essential toy body part with shakey hands
all sorts of Noise happens zing zing buzz buzz
quite loud
and quite like the sound and horrific buzz I feel through my ears
and head when I think unguarded -ly
how much I hate being" Apped" by Mandlers
who sometimes seem to enjoy
getting me in all sorts of
trouble
thank goodness they are in the Private sector and have not tried "make me go "toastal"
but between us
they have tried quite a few .
high pressure.
stress inducing "plays" on me that could have lead to all sorts of dangers...
but than again
and don't you ever forget it dear reader
I am the good guy
and as for handling any sort of "happening" involving "Proxies Gone Wild"
I am a man who can barely tie his shoes
thanks to my
REDUCTIONS of cognitive function
which Valerie Prentis ,head of Proxy Cyber's Intraneural TV dept ..extradited herself
(with a bombardment of 20.3 hz waves leading to an adrenalin spike that caused calcium ions to nearly destroy my nervous system giving my movements
a more puppetlike "glide' than mere metaphor implies
much of the day
I must writhe and riddle in bed.
simply caught up like an overturned box turtle
feeling
entranced
and inverted by the pulsations
that are part of the delivery system of a "Mandled " life.
the Dystonia and pseudo Parkinsonian movement disorder an irreversible punishment put upon me
for daring still to have a mind of my own
resisting
this augment and correction of mind...that is being done at "no cost" to me
and purely as a favor
to test psychotronic protocol on Types like me .a demographic known to cause trouble
when things to come which are already here
ripple a "let my people go let my people go" almost spontaneous reaction
to the invisible ,undetectable Neuro Corrections being done to "my ilk"
I have written much about these "unseen" mentors
who DO NOT or WILL NOT Leave Me Alone..
yet in a way
I have never been so alone in my life.
I am elsewhere.
in limbo
between 2 places.2 planes of reality
and trust me
the other place
this new beckoning 5 sense immersion boutique of A.I and Mind to Mind Correspondence has the stink and cough of plaster dust and endless remodeling and tear down techniques of "behavior modification and "set" design based upon
set in place mutual memories that provide
a good?Dendritish
stage for
a good proper soaking or fire hosing of this or that memory associated with either aural,visual,taste touch or smell associations..
much of the time my interfaces are fumbled thoughts stampeding out of their bio sensored headsets
that it is I RUINING
the Blueprint.and architecture
by not being
motivated to
"let go" and "let them"
readjust for instance
my mind's eye view of the entirety of the year 1983
as I have said
although surrounded by sound and vision
and constant temporal temptation to "go outside" my zone...and WITH IT
to ROLL with IT instead
of being afraid
or finding the newness of CO Opted thought and imagining disturbing and wrong
(for they have been known to turn on a subject on a dime...)
they also care very little
for the social ramifications of ROLLING with IT..
as it is one thing to have what is thought as an "acceptable" mental condition(I had been diagnosed quite early as Autistic...and than Aspegerritious...
these spectrum-ish disorders had always made it quite difficult to connect with OTHERS
yet
it is one thing to be perceived or typed as Autistic
which can make one SEEM doe-ish and malleable and pliable
and quite another to be perceived as one
who is "known": to both SEE and HEAR things others
do not
one is now looked upon as a dangerous man
apt to do something
based on the Whim of some Cybernetic Command
as in
'''Hey didn't that guy who did that stuff to the people at that mall claim he too was guided by electronic influence...isn't that what such and such man also claimed who did this and that to...."
Perhaps my Mentors were in fact looking out for my social standing when they told me not to speak about the seeing and hearing
perhaps it was more about public perception
than about patents
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