and see what i first think is my Mandler sending me a visual of some abstract art
but for a moment
the black and white "painting"
which I see in mid air( as Proxy often do)
"re Pro nounces "itself,redefines itself as if someone had Undid an extreme effect on Adobe Photoshop
and I see
was a deliberate blurring of
a Missing Poster
you might see in a post office or police station
similar and not so similar
to a boy or girl on a milk carton
even for the few milliseconds before the unBlur.the message(missing poster) was
as blurred,rendered or not...there is a specific layout to missing poster
like they made my father missed?
like they made my father's mind toward the end?
I had been thinking about
my father who passed away some years ago under strange circumstances-
who had once told me
he had a premonition
he now believes was
i believed at the time my father was out of his mind
our last conversation involved him ranting on about "the cat in the hat"
obviously the kids parents in the children's book had hired the cat
to cause an imprint on the children the cat in the hat visited
"and don't be fooled Perry..."my dad said,"the cat doesn't clean up the messes he causes.. the messes ,.like your mother
(whom he despises MORE than the dirty bastards who PLACED
to steer things in a certain direction..."
sure dad sure I said..
what else could i say
must have seen or heard my condescension ..for he slammed his fist on a coffee table so hard the table's legs broke
Controlled Access Technology and Silent Sound
was what my father was working on
it was before i was born
he had patented some very early
ideas and prototypes based on the frey autiory effect
and thought according to him
he'd be wealthy and
set for life
my father was happy bachelor
but one day
my father said he woke up
KNOWING it would soon end.
his bachelorhood and in retrospect,his happiness
it was the day I met your mother
it was peculiar
the song"Something"s Coming running through my head
you,the song from West Side Story
i couldn't make it stop.the song
i swear i looked every where for some out side source
I s even thinking of tearing down a sheet of wallpaper to find some emitting device
.'he said,"you work with silent sound all day long ..silent sound is on your minde said ...and maybe your mind plays tricks
the song stopped...
just stopped.just like I had never heard it...
about to finish my coffee when the door bell rang
...a man in a pinstriped suit
who looked vaguely like Van Heflin the actor
and said,"if you want to be happy for the rest of life .never make a pretty woman your wife."
before could ask the man why he rang.
for surely he had not rung me to
quote a pop song the man was half way down the steps