losing it. and can't see placing myself in a mental hospital.
can't see living like this either.
i have no gun. I have tried pills,drugs...
it didn't work - tried them years ago - took more then enough - i thought
never again with pills.
which means getting to a high enough bridge.
I even incorporated - this into 'the story"- a GOOD PERSON whose part of the "street theater"
who might be asked to intervene would - somehow - get their late- or somehow
"flub " their lines..
this is hell
they know it..
I know it
everybody who researches this KNOWS IT
a GOOD PERSON involved with this would allow me to go.