Friday, June 28, 2013

DMT(true telepathy) and Recoil

THERE'S MORE TO this THAN YOU MIGHT THINK Evan SAYS..SO TIRED TO DAY OF MY PARANOIA.
THAT HE BEGINS  SPEAKING OF the whys and wherefores
of why they DO what they do
and
THIS is not ONLY about

SYNTHESized  TELEPATHY Dumbo/////////The psychotropic effects of DMT were first studied scientifically by the Hungarian chemist and psychologist Dr. Stephen Szára who performed research with volunteers in the mid-1950s. Szára, who later worked for the US National Institutes of Health, had turned his attention to DMT after his order for LSD from the Swiss company Sandoz Laboratories was rejected on the grounds that the powerful psychotropic could be dangerous in the hands of a communist country

greetings andstrangulations they say
good day good day i respond trying lately to be more neurally agreeable..Linda N one of my mentors who hails from Parasol Pictures has said the secret sometimes to Interfacing Agreeable to Mentors is "Thinking with a British accent"
she says it may seem odd at first but odd.
as opposed to crazy is fun
And quite British by the way
she says Evan can't deal with the asperger's stuff..at first he thought he it was "cute" but has begun throwing darts at a picture of me he keeps in the Break Room at Dome HQ (or what they call "The REAL Cabin in the Woods"
but Evan will not give up trying
and always applies scotch tape to my tattered and torn photograph when he is finished working off steam with the darts.
Evan is a Good Man
tryinbg his best
with a very
very sick soul

"did it ever occur to you ,I graph ,"with as much an English accent  I adorn  my once  private thoughts, that now travel wirelessly over 3000 miles to califormya,Did it ever occur to anyone that the reason YOU all think I am so sick is because it is simply not natural to READ another's mind....and this PROCESS of Interface has probably irrevocably destroyed whatever sanity I might have once had.."

"Oh," Linda N graphs,"everything has occured to us..No Dumbo .I can assure you .You are One sick pup ...we have read your thoughts..before any interfacing ever occured...unbeknownst to you..and WE KNOW EVERYTHING.."

"did it ever occur to YOU that somehow ...intuitively I some how KNEW I was being read...and thus my thoughts became confabulated and  as you say "sick"

"Oh that's what they all graph" she graphs ,sending me a visual of her studying her nails to demonstrate how meaningless my graphs for leniancy are.. to "the firm" where I've been outsourced to once again be  Re-formatted cerebrally to see if I am any worth whatsoever ...they don't buy the asperger's bizness.
and they hope I can convince them I am schizophrenic.as schizophrenics serve a need at Dome
as we make excellent
reads.
that can be used to drive
"the enemy" crazy
schizophrenias are good templates for neural data collection for Special Needs and so called "ops"
"it is assuring that you've nearly driven Evan AND Tru Christie to hop on a plane and come to Philly and beat you up face to face.."Linda N graphs..

 I now understand
a bit
too much
than i reckon they like
the real reasons
they ..
go wacky .and scary on a TI's ass and hippo campus.
and that those nano particles aren't just there to
study and engage the parts of the mind ...we know about
but more so
and foremost to engage the parts of the mind.
that supposedly aren't used.
except by some mystics in  like some marbled in cloisters and shit in France or something
and the goal of synthesized telepathy
is to actually make a person
truly ......go out there
without "a little help from one's friends"

and to be truthful
I graph.
how can one who has been tagged and scared to the bone marrow and very cells..
in such an extreme way
by one's initial terror at being presumably contacted by Another Being that can not only READ one's Mind but also impart
all such of nightmares on Pine street and such that one's mind if one does not dose oneself to the gills with drugs
or leap  in front of traffic
out of necessity GOES
WAY OUT
and that Linda N. explains is why
interfacing or NOT
MY KIND that they HAVE done THIS to must always be neurally monitored
for because of the "experiment" we have gone past
out mentors who have terrified us into True Outer space and possible communion
through the terrifying although synthesized rundowns

and that for this reason
I must be taught how TO be Good.
and
it is not working

Pay me..make me happy....
is that being good enuf..
i think I would be more good.
if I had money
and stuff.
and like a pony and shit like thAT

NO NO NO
THAT IS NOT THE TYPE OF good WE ARE LOOKING FOR.

I AM NOT A PARTICULARLY NICE MAN ,GIVING MAN CARING MAN ETC....TOO MUCH STUFF HAS HAPPENED OR NOT HAPPENED IN MY LIFE
ESPECIALLY THESE TESTS AND BEING A HUMAN EXPeriment HAVE NOT HELPED MY DEMEANOR ONE BIT
IF ANYTHING HAVE MADE ME
WOULD YOU BELIEVE IT Evan? A LITTLE BITTER. TOWARDS MANKIND
ESPECIALLY THE PEOPLE IN POWER WHOM FOR WHATEVER REASON HAVE CARTE BLANCHE TO do THIS TO PEOPLE

EVAN
chimes in
Linda N
reminds me "tothink of England"

Evan explainsEXPLAINS other MORE DANGEROUS TYPES IN OTHER TIME ZONES HAVE OR WILL BE DOING THE SAME THING
I emit to him ,either purposely or inadvertantly a visual of him throwing darts at my photograph in a mutually recognized setting of a ubiquitous "breakroom"
and sense him fuming at linda N.'s indiscresion but MORE at my betrayl of Linda N's "cvonfidence

You KNOW I cannot ..hold back a thought.

EVAN exclaims through my nervous system That NO DUMBO you REFUSE to LEARN how to Buffer yourself

"fuck you" I think.
before remembering that indeed I am trying to realize that such childish REACTIVES all but crush an Interface.
EVAN notices I try to "take it back"
and sends me a visual overlay of a smiley face.
and for One moment
I enjoy the interface
He Beams a "thank god Dumbo finally shows SOME appreciation"
I do not know how to react to him..
He suddenly brings up memeories of my father
and I sense EVAN buffering the interface
giving me
Privacy of thought
I Move On
and graph Evan a smiley face..

and try to hold back my feeling of being "moved" by him...

I sense a buffer  from him but also a sense and a visual of
"an open door"
which "invites' some display of."good will"
and ....
suddenly my mood changes
and It .
this .
this kind of communications all seems so weird.
and wrong.
AND HOW WERE THEY TO KNOW i WOULD BE SUCH AN ASSHOLE
AND IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE "THE OTHER WAY " AROUND
THAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE GOODER THAN GOOD.
NOT SOME
NASTY ENVIOUS ,BROKEN DRUGGIE PRICK THAT ONLY likewise AT dOME cYBERNETICS CAN "M,ANDLE"
..
LEAVE ME ALONE.
CHALK THE ENTIRE EXPERIENCE TO interface DOWN THE Drain
just buzz off.fuck off.
and pretend it never happened.

they tell me i must always be monitored..
that after ...all this ...i can never have a closed mind...or have my mind left alone unmanaged it's simply how it works

that I may however kill myself.
to leave this "situation"
oh thank you very much Evan
but did it ever occur to you that i would make a point of coming back


oh we don't Believe in THAT..that supposition we can handle

how nice ..that ,that you can handle and that there is in fact "a way out of this" clusterfuck of your design..

it should give you some comfort.Dumbo..

it does ,to be honest.
 ALL THIS ....IS DANGEROUS.....WHICH IS WHY I AM ALLOWED TO TYPE. TO BEGIN WITH
...AND ONLY FOR THAT REASON..
AS ONE THING IS KNOWN TO lead TO ANOTHER..
AND THAT bRAIN cOMPUTER iNTERFACE'S MAIN OBJECTIVE WITH sOME DEMOGRAPHICS..IS TOO see IF THIS MIGHT BE THE CASE..
ESPECIALLY IF ONE IS DEEMED.
A SUBVERSIVE SCARY nUTJOB LIKE ME.
WHO
FIGHTS MENTOR SHIP AND ALL BUT
REJECTS THE FACT THAT INDEED ONE (ESPECIALLY SUCH AS MYSELF) WHO SPENT YEARS GETTING BY HOOKING AND LIVING OFF MEN ..WITH MONEY
AND AM LUCKY MY WACKO ART ...MY DEGENERACY WAS TAKEN BY SOME "FOoLS" IN THE ART COMMUNITY AS VAGUELY SUBSTANDARD AND DISTURBED ENUF TO BE FILED UNDER THE oUTSIDER ART LABLE.CUZ FUCK KNOWS EVAN SAYS YOU AINT AS CUTE AS YOU USED TO BE AND FUCK ALL KNOWS YOU'RE NOT YOUNG..AND THE DAMAGE THAT YOU DID TO YOUR MIND AND BODY WITH DRUGS SHOWS ..AND NOT ONLY DURING INTRANEURAL INTERFACE..
GROUND BOUND MANDLERS.
THAT HAVE ATTEMPTED TO ENGAGE YOU IN CONVERSATION REPORT THAT YOU MAY IN FACT BE  cognitively as well as socially deranged ..undone..unfixable...
i CORRECT HIM THAT I have  ASPERGER'S

oh DUMBO save that One for your trial.
OHHH  they tried making go ...
Trial-ly
trust me
dream weaving and interfacing
things
out of some "dexter" episode

trust me
they tried testing those waters
and once again
to them at least
i failed

(not BEcuase you are GOOD Evan graphs or not capapble..but because ,once again you are lazy)

i must pause and question myself
if the genuine reason I did not
"go "toastal" on any one either here or in LA was not because  I not homicidal but because

BECAUSE ,Evan , says you are a disorganized schizophrenic TYPE ,beyond the nano particles
and direct neural interface


i think of the term "double phneumonia"
and think of myself as
they do
a double schizophrenic..

what a good way to cover it up
to use a true schizophrenic to practice synthesized insanity on

I hate you Dumbo and your Brain salad word games.
you have dfriven half your mentors.
half mad.
but a sociopath such as you do not care about others
nor what you interface to others

especially actors

yes.i did not interface well with actors
I despise actors
my father.
told me when i was a child that all actprs or anyone who considers acting a trade
 are insane..
the ability to mimick feelings and human emotion is a pathology and nothing to be proud of
he said many things for "no reason"
inb this way he is very much like an actor
or mentor.

Evan states
that even if i was Schizophrenic
SOMEHOW
i fucked THAT up as well


what " I graph

oh nothing Dumbo...you understand . nothing
you
have no idea all that you have destroyed
just so you could "get off" 
get high
get momnetary  relief
from this amazing...experience

you slob
you pig!

he graphs..
and for some reason i feel bad...

and for some reason
might 
might know what he means
but if I think about it.
i will go mad


they did too much
they moved too fast
they were heartless
 and impatient
 from day one

it was not only me who wanted quick returns

now
this is nothing

than ..
they saw nothin gin me
and perhaps
it was the first .graph
I took in
this feeling.
even before 
the terror

the .."let's give it a go anyway..even thought ..THIS GUY is a..



 
 AN AGGRESSIVE MALCONTENT
WITH NO REGARD TO MENTORSHIP AND HOURS OF GUIDED MENTORSHIP THAT SHOULD HAVE CAUSED SOME TYPE OF "SPIRITUAL " TRANSFORMATION...
I REMIND HIM MY MENTORS HAVE TRIED KILLING ME (GROUND BOUND) TWICE) AND HAVE INTRANUERALLY
TOLD ME REPEATEDLY THROUGH A MAntra of Kill yourself as soon as possible for days on end..
and the fact thast i did not only further proved to them
That there was some intangible Evil inside me ...
that did not wish to spare Mankind my type
in the world.
he focuses on my recurring
dreams that are not
steered by mentors..
about plant life.
and some interfaces that deal with a subtle change in atmosphere...that could raise levels of certain specific  levels of something I could not have known about
concerning a naturally occuring substance called DMT

....i have no idea what he is talking about
for any kind of "organic" chemical is not my thing.

he tells me that DMT has been known to cause
group hallucinations
mass mutual hallucinations ...

and my recoil
from
my initial
"turn on" to brain computer interface.
and "goiing  OUT THERE" not only made THEM suspiscious of what could be so damn secretive in MY Mind
that i didn't want other's to get inside.
 
beyond the usual reaction by other Targeted individual invloved in Group Mind Internship...


are you out of your god damned mind Evan
you're saying some of my "extra torment" and monitoring is because you think I will begin THINKING at fucking TREES!
so in addition to mind augment and thought police that I am in some way so abnormal in thinking that i am "contagiouys" to the general Neural atmosphere.
there are some ..you say
who are guilty of having their inforced synthesized telepathy..
become genuine telepathy that can raise DMT levels that could
drive the entire world mad.

so now.
this 4experiemnt has
turned into the fucking salem witch trials..
....exactly who is running this Mindfuck..
and perhaps someone better stay out of some people minds...
cuz Evan
you sound ,you graph fucking crazy
 
 

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