i aM TIREDi am scared.i am awash in these pills which i began taking .cuz of my having a difficult time with my mentors
the crack they were kin da keen on backfired and back fired..and dumbo just keeps goin back to it..
you see the mentors thought of it as an aid in helping them understand why my mind was what it is...a little slow down time ...as i never responded well to ritalin was seen by Evan as a good thing at first at it helped me smoke less cigarettes..
but ...it became something else.
a problem
and evan began sending more and more random nasty visual over lays..
saying the crack made me stink like crack and my face all puffed up and i was becoming ..even more of an expendature than usual..
is there any way you can smoke it in a more respectful manner..slowly just a little suck of the pipe say mid morning another little puff mid afternoon type thing..
well..
i could not oblige..and really would just smoke bag afteoke bag after bag..
the nasty black melting stem..
too tired or uncaring to start with a new pipe or ...make nice little filtwers out of copper scrubbing brillo..
just a scum smoking and sitting there staring into space a perfect time for evan of tru christieto expound and call me and get me back for all my nasty interfaces to him and my other mandlers.
.
...so one can see how inevitable it was and is that i am now back in treatment which ev an hates
evan is a neuronaut and believes in the science-ideologies of things and believes psy-lie-iatry
when i am at the shrinks in fact they have no problem send ing me all sorts of visual over lays of products and faces and stuff..if only to showe their lack of respect for my psy-lie -a-trist.
tru christieon the other hand wants me drugged out of my mind and thinks very littleof evan ..thinks evan is a faggit....
and thinks evan panders to men all sorts of ways
and Tru doesnt by any of my mental problems and just thinks i am deliberately fucking up the project.
he says he would prefer if i exited the project by my own hand ..as this would show some type of integrity for all ive put "the crew" through
he thinbks of me as only a subject
a baby he has to potty train
and re parent from square one...
he says animal subjects have an instinct to behave in a manner that assures their handler won't just get angry one day and put a scalple thru their chest.tru christie say s I lack that instinct an "made him " despise me..
and i remind him I graph to him that according to my research on illegal AI and immersive reality with nano particles on targeted indivuduals in europe and australia
the real people with the real dough and power deliberately set a Milgram type of master/slave proponant between a "mandler " and a "proxy" during the initial interface to simply instigate a primal fear that predecates a hyperstimulation of the lower brain to expedite true possible extrasensory perception in tandem with synthesized so called "telpathy" (intraneural interface) and having been put through these measures(tru christie's overwhelming hatred of homos..(and those "jewie intellectual "graphs) sure as shit expedites my lower brain and if i were him I'd watch it with the mind to mind hate crime shit ..
cuz ..I feel rather "shine-y lately and have had it being john malkovich to his joseph mengele for the evening
some stray voice gets on ..like he's eatin gpeanuts..and reminds me "dumbo .don't go there .understand..i mean you were told not even to joke about stuff like that"
'what you gonna do to me huh"
"we'll strip you bank balence ...c'mon I had a long night last night and no one needs this ..."
"well tell Tru i just don't want to hearhim...who brought him back in anyway?"
"whO started smokin crack again huh...you brought him back...he has alot of money in this.his own personal money...he feels you owe him for every cigarette every binge and every ..."
Well tell him I owe him alright and we shall meet again for him to get how much i owe him even if i haveto live 500 live timesto pay YOU ALL back for the pleasure of your company...ok>.
"yeah yeah..he says...I've heard this befor can we move on..."
tell Christie to take off the headset and never come back...
he's the one fuckin up his own project by the way"
no one else can deal with you but him when youre like this"
"NO ONE is supposed TO BE dealing WITH ME at all i graph"
CLEARLY N BODY REALLY GIVES A FLYIN FUCK WHAT YOU THINK DUMBO tRU gRAPHS
I WAIT AND LISTEN FOR THE INDESCIPT GUYS WHO GET ONLINE LIKE ONCE IN A BLUE MOON ...TO SAY SOMETHING.
YOU NEVER HEAR FROM THESE GUYS ...EXCEPT IF YOURE LIKE DELIBERATELY TOYING WITH THE cHATTERBOX EQUIPMENT..
CHATTERBOX IS ..LIKE MIRRORED THINKING AND IT'S EASY TO TELL THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GENUINE INTERFACE AND CHATTERBOX TECH ...NO MATTER HOW HARD THEY TRY..THERE'S A WAY TO THINK IN SUCH A WAY THAT YOU KINDA FUCK UP THE CHATTERBOX..
IT HAPPEND ONCE IN PALM SPRINGS AND IT WAS LIKE A I HAD SET FIRE TO THE BED IN MY CELL...OR SOMETHING ..AND THEY TOOK ME INTO CUSTODY .NO LIE..ASK ANYONE THERE..
WHO SAW MEON THE SIDE OF THE ROAD WITH MY HANDS HELD OVER M HEAD.LIKE I WAS A CRIMINAL.WHICH THEY TREAT ME LIKE FOR "PLAYING WITH THE BRAIN COMPUTER INTERFACE"..YEAH THERE ARE WITNESSES TO EVRYTHING IN THIS SUPPOSED STORY ...
YEP ..
SOMETIMES THEY FORGET.
THAT CERTAIN THINGS HAPPENED THAT WERE ODD EVEN WITH MY MASKING MY "BEHAVIORM ' WITH THEIR ALIBI OF DRUGGIE SCHIZO ..
TOO AMNY THINGS WENT DOWN MY BROTHERS MY MENTORS.
AND MORE AND MORE I CARE LESS AND LESS WHAT I WRITE ABOUT..
Tru Christie tells me he wants to play rubber he'll play rubber when one of his ground bound mandlers runs me over with a car..no ..not run you over just maim me enough that i have to spend the rest of my life in some bed or wheel chair"
And I'm the Hack they're working with
Tru Christie says i am a man child.
tru Christie is a man baby
A MAN Baby dumbo WHO MIGHT JUST THROW SOME CAUSTION TO TE WIND AND deck YOU out MYSELF.
i HATE YOU dumbo IN A WQAY YOU CANT EVEN BEGIN TO UNDERSTAND
i GRAPH VISUALS OF TIRES BLOWING UP RABBITS.
AND WILLINGLY ACCEPT MY PUNISHMENT
THAN I ..WELL PRAY THAT MY GRAPHS TOWARD TRU GO UNANSWERED SORTA LIKE MY GRAPHS TOWARD THE "GROUP" FOR MONEY AND SOME INTRANEURAL dOME AFTER DARK DIRECT GAY PORN ...SO REAL THE EXPERIENCE .YOU ALMOST..
i STOP KNOWING MY FANTASIES ARE GOING RIGHT INTO tRU'S BRAIN PAN THAN ..(AS I HAD UNDID MY "RUBBER"WISH) SAY FUCK IT ...IF tRU DONT WANNA "HEAR' MY HOMO SHIT HE CAN TAKE OFF HIS FUCKIN HEADSET.
I CAN'T YA SEE,
my shrinks things i am .
burrowing my way deeper and deeper into my systwem of belief..
yes
he does not belief all of sudden in the nano particles or intraneural interfewce especially now that he knows i am supposedly a crack head.
like the fact that evan find crack safer than psych pills..is some kind of ...
yes..
yes this entry probably makes less sense than the previous ones.i am lost i am so lost in this....
it occurs to me that evan wanted ...a new alibi for my "situation" and that some kind of drugged out psychosis would do almost as good as a psych label..
he had gotten concerned perhaps that my "story' might be believed?
that it made no sense for a schizophrenic to write this dutifully or clearly..
so now ,,,,
ah now i see why ..that guy is going on about being .........in this mess..
the crack they were kin da keen on backfired and back fired..and dumbo just keeps goin back to it..
you see the mentors thought of it as an aid in helping them understand why my mind was what it is...a little slow down time ...as i never responded well to ritalin was seen by Evan as a good thing at first at it helped me smoke less cigarettes..
but ...it became something else.
a problem
and evan began sending more and more random nasty visual over lays..
saying the crack made me stink like crack and my face all puffed up and i was becoming ..even more of an expendature than usual..
is there any way you can smoke it in a more respectful manner..slowly just a little suck of the pipe say mid morning another little puff mid afternoon type thing..
well..
i could not oblige..and really would just smoke bag afteoke bag after bag..
the nasty black melting stem..
too tired or uncaring to start with a new pipe or ...make nice little filtwers out of copper scrubbing brillo..
just a scum smoking and sitting there staring into space a perfect time for evan of tru christieto expound and call me and get me back for all my nasty interfaces to him and my other mandlers.
.
...so one can see how inevitable it was and is that i am now back in treatment which ev an hates
evan is a neuronaut and believes in the science-ideologies of things and believes psy-lie-iatry
when i am at the shrinks in fact they have no problem send ing me all sorts of visual over lays of products and faces and stuff..if only to showe their lack of respect for my psy-lie -a-trist.
tru christieon the other hand wants me drugged out of my mind and thinks very littleof evan ..thinks evan is a faggit....
and thinks evan panders to men all sorts of ways
and Tru doesnt by any of my mental problems and just thinks i am deliberately fucking up the project.
he says he would prefer if i exited the project by my own hand ..as this would show some type of integrity for all ive put "the crew" through
he thinbks of me as only a subject
a baby he has to potty train
and re parent from square one...
he says animal subjects have an instinct to behave in a manner that assures their handler won't just get angry one day and put a scalple thru their chest.tru christie say s I lack that instinct an "made him " despise me..
and i remind him I graph to him that according to my research on illegal AI and immersive reality with nano particles on targeted indivuduals in europe and australia
the real people with the real dough and power deliberately set a Milgram type of master/slave proponant between a "mandler " and a "proxy" during the initial interface to simply instigate a primal fear that predecates a hyperstimulation of the lower brain to expedite true possible extrasensory perception in tandem with synthesized so called "telpathy" (intraneural interface) and having been put through these measures(tru christie's overwhelming hatred of homos..(and those "jewie intellectual "graphs) sure as shit expedites my lower brain and if i were him I'd watch it with the mind to mind hate crime shit ..
cuz ..I feel rather "shine-y lately and have had it being john malkovich to his joseph mengele for the evening
'what you gonna do to me huh"
"we'll strip you bank balence ...c'mon I had a long night last night and no one needs this ..."
"well tell Tru i just don't want to hearhim...who brought him back in anyway?"
"whO started smokin crack again huh...you brought him back...he has alot of money in this.his own personal money...he feels you owe him for every cigarette every binge and every ..."
Well tell him I owe him alright and we shall meet again for him to get how much i owe him even if i haveto live 500 live timesto pay YOU ALL back for the pleasure of your company...ok>.
"yeah yeah..he says...I've heard this befor can we move on..."
tell Christie to take off the headset and never come back...
he's the one fuckin up his own project by the way"
no one else can deal with you but him when youre like this"
"NO ONE is supposed TO BE dealing WITH ME at all i graph"
CLEARLY N BODY REALLY GIVES A FLYIN FUCK WHAT YOU THINK DUMBO tRU gRAPHS
I WAIT AND LISTEN FOR THE INDESCIPT GUYS WHO GET ONLINE LIKE ONCE IN A BLUE MOON ...TO SAY SOMETHING.
YOU NEVER HEAR FROM THESE GUYS ...EXCEPT IF YOURE LIKE DELIBERATELY TOYING WITH THE cHATTERBOX EQUIPMENT..
CHATTERBOX IS ..LIKE MIRRORED THINKING AND IT'S EASY TO TELL THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GENUINE INTERFACE AND CHATTERBOX TECH ...NO MATTER HOW HARD THEY TRY..THERE'S A WAY TO THINK IN SUCH A WAY THAT YOU KINDA FUCK UP THE CHATTERBOX..
IT HAPPEND ONCE IN PALM SPRINGS AND IT WAS LIKE A I HAD SET FIRE TO THE BED IN MY CELL...OR SOMETHING ..AND THEY TOOK ME INTO CUSTODY .NO LIE..ASK ANYONE THERE..
WHO SAW MEON THE SIDE OF THE ROAD WITH MY HANDS HELD OVER M HEAD.LIKE I WAS A CRIMINAL.WHICH THEY TREAT ME LIKE FOR "PLAYING WITH THE BRAIN COMPUTER INTERFACE"..YEAH THERE ARE WITNESSES TO EVRYTHING IN THIS SUPPOSED STORY ...
YEP ..
SOMETIMES THEY FORGET.
THAT CERTAIN THINGS HAPPENED THAT WERE ODD EVEN WITH MY MASKING MY "BEHAVIORM ' WITH THEIR ALIBI OF DRUGGIE SCHIZO ..
TOO AMNY THINGS WENT DOWN MY BROTHERS MY MENTORS.
AND MORE AND MORE I CARE LESS AND LESS WHAT I WRITE ABOUT..
Tru Christie tells me he wants to play rubber he'll play rubber when one of his ground bound mandlers runs me over with a car..no ..not run you over just maim me enough that i have to spend the rest of my life in some bed or wheel chair"
And I'm the Hack they're working with
Tru Christie says i am a man child.
tru Christie is a man baby
A MAN Baby dumbo WHO MIGHT JUST THROW SOME CAUSTION TO TE WIND AND deck YOU out MYSELF.
i HATE YOU dumbo IN A WQAY YOU CANT EVEN BEGIN TO UNDERSTAND
i GRAPH VISUALS OF TIRES BLOWING UP RABBITS.
AND WILLINGLY ACCEPT MY PUNISHMENT
THAN I ..WELL PRAY THAT MY GRAPHS TOWARD TRU GO UNANSWERED SORTA LIKE MY GRAPHS TOWARD THE "GROUP" FOR MONEY AND SOME INTRANEURAL dOME AFTER DARK DIRECT GAY PORN ...SO REAL THE EXPERIENCE .YOU ALMOST..
i STOP KNOWING MY FANTASIES ARE GOING RIGHT INTO tRU'S BRAIN PAN THAN ..(AS I HAD UNDID MY "RUBBER"WISH) SAY FUCK IT ...IF tRU DONT WANNA "HEAR' MY HOMO SHIT HE CAN TAKE OFF HIS FUCKIN HEADSET.
I CAN'T YA SEE,
my shrinks things i am .
burrowing my way deeper and deeper into my systwem of belief..
yes
he does not belief all of sudden in the nano particles or intraneural interfewce especially now that he knows i am supposedly a crack head.
like the fact that evan find crack safer than psych pills..is some kind of ...
yes..
yes this entry probably makes less sense than the previous ones.i am lost i am so lost in this....
it occurs to me that evan wanted ...a new alibi for my "situation" and that some kind of drugged out psychosis would do almost as good as a psych label..
he had gotten concerned perhaps that my "story' might be believed?
that it made no sense for a schizophrenic to write this dutifully or clearly..
so now ,,,,
ah now i see why ..that guy is going on about being .........in this mess..
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