there's a depression seeping in..the benzos...the feeling of sluggishness and fruitlessness of writing about a subject that only other "subjects" understand..
as "directed"
as expected.
I blend in real or imagined psychiatric explanations.
truth and fiction come together.as bold as I once thought of myself to "tell it clearly " swings more to
the fact that THEY never wanted me to Tell It at all.
yet at a point one feels like a child being secretly beaten and abused
and
although Evan has explained WHY one must be "broken" to accept The New Way without so much "friction"
and" backtalk "concerning one's day to day second to second interfaces.
how one must accept some "chain of command"
in The Process..
and of course on the food chain a Human Guinea pig IS to never command
but
incorporate Neuronautic's "Subjugated Self" ("Inway to The Enway " Gary Rainy revised edition 1978 p. 89)
as the New Commandments.
and how The New Way renounces society's "Culture of Narcissism"( Christopher Lasch 1979) knowing that humans want to be controlled
hence the natural affinity and draw of the Alpha male or "queen bee"
"there is nothing wrong with being Shepard ...early man could not survive without servitude to a master...or teacher...your resistance is only;y because this fragmented culture has taught you above all to never bow..to never think of anyone as better than you..
during one of our rundowns...Evan made me sit for hours with scissors in hand cutting out all men in my age bracket in magazine that were better looking than me..starting with a muscle magazine ,next Entertainment weekly.Next he had me go to the encyclopedia and cut out all the achievements of men who had done more than me in terms of science,the arts and physical prowess....
my notebooks soon filled to the brim with cut out movie stars and athletes and adventurers of all sorts
"you are an insignificant man ...but the cybernetic testing with frequency and overlay makes you useful ...of use.
if you turn against the project you are of no use whatsoever..
and in this way an expenditure.
a loose end.
a mutinous rabid dog.
I have begun seeing myself more and more like "My Mentors"
as a social problem..in need of first possible re-education ,,,than possible elimination.
these are serious people
Insight technicians..who handle.who mandle another man
for "correction and or instigated "ejection"..
in the beginning I could not take IT seriously.
sound and vision.
the proverbial devil inside but with a extreme low frequency and a headset..
testing
REACTIVES.and time delays of Pre Neural Firings toward SITUATIONALS
EST meets "The Stasi" meets an episode of "What Would You Do"..in response to "the Truman Show" around you...once twice every few years when one is IN this Program..project
Out of the Woodwork...comes "live theater"to further confuse your sense of self and reality..
TI 's (targeted Individuals across the world call THEM(or it ) Organized Gang Stalking..whose job it is to provide Real Time Interactives and weave some sort of "Plot"into "The Game"*
in the past certain change agents attempted to create false or infused memories or perception (and thus personalities) by drugging a "Proxy" or "subject" with hallucinogenic and scripted "Instigation"
"last night
I dreampt of Manchuria .again..."
but as I've said
nothing comes of it...one feels eventually as if one's mind has been all but spent or removed and forced to sit away from oneself in some cold room taking a 2 year SAT test or something...
tried writing it as fiction ...
semi fiction.
anywhich way ..
but recently have begun reading other Targeted Individual's accounts
which seem hysterical...beyond belief and most of repetitious ..
and that is the problem .
the repetition really...for Testing is about "getting it right" not about any genuine finished product or goal.
not for the subject at least who soon becomes wise ...
that the point NOW is for the
subject to Go AwaY
but since they were
involved
recognize that remote monitoring must always be done.
after all it is their not your "show" or nano inserts
..
one's life now becomes about medicating ones self to a blurred form of oneself.barely oneself at all.
to drug one self with street drugs or prescribed meds.
to alter oneself
and moreso one's dendrites specifically "used" for interior monologue.
which "the Team" seeks to encode.
there is not longer any difference really whatsoever between you and a "garden variety" schizophrenic wearing a tinfoil hat
the drugs you take that make you not sure if your shoes are on the right feet( or care for that matter)are your tin foil hat.
you made the mistake months ago of taking the meds
...a wussing out..
of not understanding WHY or not caring WHY The Process had to be carried out 24/7
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In the early 1980s it is claimed that the **** began extensive use of Remote Neural Monitoring(mind reading , and rather primitive versions of mind encoding technology). Much of what is known about it stems from evidence presented as part of a 1992 court case brought by John St.Claire Akwei against ...... It describes an extensive array of advanced technology and resources dedicated to remotely monitoring hundreds of thousands of people in the US and abroad. Capabilities include access to an individual's subvocalizations as well as images from the visual cortex and sounds from the auditory cortex.
The earliest non-classified references to this type of technology appear in a 1976 patent by R.G. Malech Patent #3951134 “Apparatus and method for remotely monitoring and altering brain waves” USPTO granted 4/20/76. The patent describes a technique using the transmission of 100 and 210 MHz signals to the brain yielding a 110 MHz signal which is modulated by the brain waves and can be detected by a receiver for further processing.
as "directed"
as expected.
I blend in real or imagined psychiatric explanations.
truth and fiction come together.as bold as I once thought of myself to "tell it clearly " swings more to
the fact that THEY never wanted me to Tell It at all.
yet at a point one feels like a child being secretly beaten and abused
and
although Evan has explained WHY one must be "broken" to accept The New Way without so much "friction"
and" backtalk "concerning one's day to day second to second interfaces.
how one must accept some "chain of command"
in The Process..
and of course on the food chain a Human Guinea pig IS to never command
but
incorporate Neuronautic's "Subjugated Self" ("Inway to The Enway " Gary Rainy revised edition 1978 p. 89)
as the New Commandments.
and how The New Way renounces society's "Culture of Narcissism"( Christopher Lasch 1979) knowing that humans want to be controlled
hence the natural affinity and draw of the Alpha male or "queen bee"
"there is nothing wrong with being Shepard ...early man could not survive without servitude to a master...or teacher...your resistance is only;y because this fragmented culture has taught you above all to never bow..to never think of anyone as better than you..
during one of our rundowns...Evan made me sit for hours with scissors in hand cutting out all men in my age bracket in magazine that were better looking than me..starting with a muscle magazine ,next Entertainment weekly.Next he had me go to the encyclopedia and cut out all the achievements of men who had done more than me in terms of science,the arts and physical prowess....
my notebooks soon filled to the brim with cut out movie stars and athletes and adventurers of all sorts
"you are an insignificant man ...but the cybernetic testing with frequency and overlay makes you useful ...of use.
if you turn against the project you are of no use whatsoever..
and in this way an expenditure.
a loose end.
a mutinous rabid dog.
I have begun seeing myself more and more like "My Mentors"
as a social problem..in need of first possible re-education ,,,than possible elimination.
these are serious people
Insight technicians..who handle.who mandle another man
for "correction and or instigated "ejection"..
in the beginning I could not take IT seriously.
sound and vision.
the proverbial devil inside but with a extreme low frequency and a headset..
testing
REACTIVES.and time delays of Pre Neural Firings toward SITUATIONALS
EST meets "The Stasi" meets an episode of "What Would You Do"..in response to "the Truman Show" around you...once twice every few years when one is IN this Program..project
Out of the Woodwork...comes "live theater"to further confuse your sense of self and reality..
TI 's (targeted Individuals across the world call THEM(or it ) Organized Gang Stalking..whose job it is to provide Real Time Interactives and weave some sort of "Plot"into "The Game"*
AMAZING interview with "mind control" victim Gloria Naylor ; EM weapons victim
in the past certain change agents attempted to create false or infused memories or perception (and thus personalities) by drugging a "Proxy" or "subject" with hallucinogenic and scripted "Instigation"
"last night
I dreampt of Manchuria .again..."
but as I've said
nothing comes of it...one feels eventually as if one's mind has been all but spent or removed and forced to sit away from oneself in some cold room taking a 2 year SAT test or something...
tried writing it as fiction ...
semi fiction.
anywhich way ..
but recently have begun reading other Targeted Individual's accounts
which seem hysterical...beyond belief and most of repetitious ..
and that is the problem .
the repetition really...for Testing is about "getting it right" not about any genuine finished product or goal.
not for the subject at least who soon becomes wise ...
that the point NOW is for the
subject to Go AwaY
but since they were
involved
recognize that remote monitoring must always be done.
after all it is their not your "show" or nano inserts
..
one's life now becomes about medicating ones self to a blurred form of oneself.barely oneself at all.
to drug one self with street drugs or prescribed meds.
to alter oneself
and moreso one's dendrites specifically "used" for interior monologue.
which "the Team" seeks to encode.
there is not longer any difference really whatsoever between you and a "garden variety" schizophrenic wearing a tinfoil hat
the drugs you take that make you not sure if your shoes are on the right feet( or care for that matter)are your tin foil hat.
you made the mistake months ago of taking the meds
...a wussing out..
of not understanding WHY or not caring WHY The Process had to be carried out 24/7
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
In the early 1980s it is claimed that the **** began extensive use of Remote Neural Monitoring(mind reading , and rather primitive versions of mind encoding technology). Much of what is known about it stems from evidence presented as part of a 1992 court case brought by John St.Claire Akwei against ...... It describes an extensive array of advanced technology and resources dedicated to remotely monitoring hundreds of thousands of people in the US and abroad. Capabilities include access to an individual's subvocalizations as well as images from the visual cortex and sounds from the auditory cortex.
The earliest non-classified references to this type of technology appear in a 1976 patent by R.G. Malech Patent #3951134 “Apparatus and method for remotely monitoring and altering brain waves” USPTO granted 4/20/76. The patent describes a technique using the transmission of 100 and 210 MHz signals to the brain yielding a 110 MHz signal which is modulated by the brain waves and can be detected by a receiver for further processing.
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