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much in the same way
one does not or cannot always ,for lack of a better word"(E.V.A.N.N ',latching on to my post synaptic firing “helps me” by interfacing what “he” believes might be better,more suitable words...”at ease”,collected” ,”composed” ,”self possessed”,”urbane” I hate when “he” gets like this essentially mocking the Brain Computer Interface into “ a computer that wore tennis shoes demonstration ,as “he” feels ,lately I am in fact mocking “The Process” by attempting to describe “the indescribable “ by attempting to write about it to begin with.”.Or end with” as HE reminds me that people/Proxy who write about IT often come to an End...an often violent one at that .He Knows though I no longer care...as being a Human Monkey I feel ,I can say whatever I like about being an “Urban Astronaut..as E.V.A.N.N. Had just done I interface to him,I graph to him all sorts of synonyms for what I have just written and thought.”speed thinking “ of words that may “be better” than Urban Astronaut in what it feels like being “wired” for “sound and Vision and mentoring/monitoring to Dome Nano Cybernetics ....”Husk” “lab Rat” “human Experiment” “puppet””Frankenstein”,Guinea Pig One cannot “fight “ or tease whom or WHAT one is tethered to for too long as one appears schizophrenic wants to pound one's “own” head and gesticulate I had done “in the beginning “ of “the tests”..Roll with it,I tell myself.and thus “tell” my Mentors...or Jump ..Dumbo..”) ..feel cool"
when one for instance "goes home" to visit one's parents .Who because of their "role" because " of their job" raising you.
before and during one's early childhood.when one ,in forming their own consciousness and "style" of being
which was observed
by one's parents.one's "mentors"
as was every trip  and fall,.awkward moment and "humiliation" that in a way
are "the stuff " of "growing" and "growing up"
these observed social or fundamental "flaws " of selfhood that go well beyond the
embarrassment of a "bad yearbook photo"

one's parents and or siblings might remember incidents and "proclivities" of 'self" and the establishment of "self" that
during one's childhood that one does not wish to remember.
and perhaps is only reminded of when one returns to "the nest"

in many ways one's parents are neural data gathers.
in many ways
visiting or feeling a 'reduction " in self.
when reintroduced to these "mentors"
one's parents
who KNOW things about YOU that in fact have in part "made YOU what you are today"
is quite like the experience of
never quite being able to "feel cool" or "comfortable in one's own skin"
when one's mind is tethered by direct neural or monitored brain computer interface
as one's Intra-neural mentors.
or the brain -computer link
also KNOWS all about one's
foibles
and one's childhood .as the interface not only studies one's present state of mind
but one's past ,one's hang -ups and things about one self even a parent would not know
about ...the intrusion of direct neural interface almost seems geared to
excavate one's primal weakness,
one's most protected secrets
and one's most humble ,humbling and "hurting" memories.
now shared whether one wants it or not ,as the mind lacks a buffer ,a firewall,a pause button during interface.
which is why one inevitably feels not only afraid but "less than" one's "mentor"
during "The Process"-2011,Sherman Oaks Ca-*****