secondary modern

Secondary - Merriam-Webster Online

b : of, relating to, or constituting the second strongest of the three or four degrees of stress recognized by most linguists..

 I am tethered to Tru Christie.

I cannot help but feel

a new regard towards him.

almost overnight

i feel changed.

Better

New

i like him telling me what to do.
where to go.
who to see.
how to think.

he role plays
he is whomever I need him to be he says
He says that THEY know what i need
and want
even more than i do
that 'everything as a faggit like me might say ,.."is up to date in Kansas City"
 in this reguard.
and I "ain't seen nothin " you loathsome cocksucker

"you like when I speak to you like this.
Types like YOU "get off on it"

hmmm....i cannot help but wonder.
he wonders if i wonder.
and says I even lie in my thoughts when I think nobody is listening
but THEY are always listening

THAT after all is their job.

they
change the format.

"to suit scum like you..."

a wretch like me ,I graph.

"on that ,"I concede.Tru Christie interfaces.


he plays me.
he tells me i am like his puppy
that i am like a little fly.in a jar .
a new kinda fly whose ripped off wings.
can be put back on
if I think in the right manner.
anbd respond
in kind to his kindness.
he tells me he is raising a pup
into a mean black dog
i ask him who and what he is
i am all things
i am the  devil in da skies.
i am the angels listening in.
and you are 160 pounds of clay
for me to pound into shapes and forms
based on my mood and whims.


he sends visuals of himself.''no not a dick pi...or anything like that
Dome Proxy Cyber.
is above all .
a family company

a family company was installed to build the stairway to the stars
to  make tricks
a real "make tricks"
but it's serious work
ya see.
cuz these god like mavericks of the New Way
have to decide if they can undo some of the damage done by
"scum like me" who are no good for anybody ..
including the pre- "make tricks" of New Way techniques and ultra -mk ultra-esque designs
ya see.
and it is serious contemplations and all
all day long .
even rabbis and stuff.
priests
and movie moguls .
are part of it ya see.
deciding if "it is right " to leave
scumbo like me
behind.
and make sure my kind
is either capable of being re-made into some form of formful usefulness
that might make it possible for me to
knock be "locked out of ...
Heaven...and paradise brought to you
or Maybe not
YOU
by Dome
Proxy -
Cyber.

Tru Christie sends visuals of himself that overide my opitical nerves and synapses.
I like it that way
one grows used to being controled
manuevered
like a drone
like a Tv set.

"like a bitch.'' tru graphs.

the visual overlay is mixed with a heightened alteration by what he calles ELF waves
of my mood
my emotions
and sensibilities
...
I see tru How he has decided to "picture " himself.
he is testy .
but I can tell he likes this test
..
he is clever and cunning
and today sexual .
his visual over ride is homo -erotic.
not a dick pic...or anything like that
Dome Proxy Cyber.
is above all .
a family company

"but "families of the future."perhaps perhaps perhaps
 real men.
not like you dumbo
a man child miscreant
.but real men
 like me.
perhaps perhaps perhaps
go both ways
" there is a rat like quality to you ..beyond the lab rat Thing .a dog like quality to you.that is appealing.
in a sick
.synthetic
 6th sense
 way.

put yer shoes on get out of bed .
and find
Me.

SHOW ME
how much
you appreciate all i've done fer you.


i put on my shoes and find my keys.
and walk to the train station.
and wait .
to hear where i should go.
I see in the trees a throbbing neon sign that says Adult Bookstore.
it's a blue sign .
the visual overlaps are usually based to some degree on the literal form and shape and color of what I see.
before me.
tru christie.
is no artist.
seamless ...placement is key to not Looking like one is seeing things.
also not jarring
esthetically to one's sight.
or one's shared sight.
it is difficult to describe.
and something the guys at dome are working on.
one day in fact i expect to wake up and see only what they present.
they tell me ..this technology will or can " help the blind'

Tru Christie hates "going off into my own "jewie egghead type of reverie.."
and the now blinking neon sign that simply says "adult Books" changes colors to green .a green neon that
is more the color of the leaves on the trees.
"happy Dumbo" Tru says...as if ,this color change was some big deal,some real reach on his part...
"dude," Tru says ,his voice ,sounding younger...
looking younger.




no longer does he have a severe
buzzcut.
and sit rigidly.
condemning ly
Goering-ly
in his jump suit.tru christie is full immersion.
he wears a VR
helmet.
not mere headset.
not hairnet for tru christie.
never mind that the virtual reality equipment no longer requires one looks like a storm trooper.,
thats usually how tru graphs himself.
he treats the whole interaction as a telephone call.
he's been given my files .,,way way back
and also has access to my neural data that was collected un beknownst to me with no impart "sway' no voices between 1995 and 2010.
and knows me in a way that i cannot.
i do not remember KEY POINTS of my post and preneural INTENT.
...
most of the data was collected to understand
my demographic.
for Parasol Pictures
that for obvious reason wants to KNOW ,really KNOW
how one responds to television
not the new kind they are developing
that i am helping these maniacs develope.whether i like it or not.
as my dr. says .
( i now sees 2 psychiatrists.,,the second used to work as a key grip in the 80's for Parasol Pictures.but due to a herniated disc .he had to get a real job .he said during our first session and figured psychiatry would be fun.cuz in a way ...being a psychiatrist is like being a key grip
i don't even know or didnt what a key grip was.
...he records our sessions.
he hints that he understand my thought Disorder.
he hints that "these days" one doesn't really know does one.if one has been "tagged" if one has been chosen to participate in The Great Experiment..in sound and vision .
or if one is simply a garden variety schizo.
"we will get to the bottom of this I am a top my self.
most mentors .are.he than said...unlike most shrinks Dr Delgado shares alot about himself...
he talks about hius days in hollywood and all the "strange" and "trim" he got as he was quite a piece in those days he would say.his eyes else where...His arms as large as virginia hams thanks to his job of holding the Boom microphone ...he tells me he was so wanted and so uniquely telegenic that he appeared twice in "Whose The Boss " and "Charles in Charge " simply because he got an actor's equity card to impress some suitor or other he was"baiting" at the time...


his office is filled with oversized movie posters.
behind his desk is a 6 foot german poster for the 1966 Rock Hudson film "Seconds"
he is a peculiar man.
whom i despised immediately
"people despise me,I believe because they are envious of my looks and bearing "he remarked ,as if reading my mind.
without a beat he  chimed in ,"I can do that you know.."
'what ,"I ,"what can you do.."
"Read minds.I am a certified Neuronaut.level 7..i drank the Kool Aid.The KetaMINE dmy Cocktail..that imbues some with second sight..,without any nano whatsoever.."
I had said nothing of nano .or mind reading and figured that this shrink who was recommended by my other dr...had read my chart.
">>.some people need nano some don't...sometimes a level 7 neuronaut works with those who have been "tagged"to really "pump up the volume" tricky bizness....I do hope you're simply insane...I barely have either the open schedule nor constitution that I had..."he said ,for some reason suddenly quite cross..


 nano particles
"being Domed" and all that crazy shit.,that i can have you put away for by the way...for there is a "new law" that he was in some way responsive for ,he and some of his "old friends" back in LA, and washington..you might have in fact read about on e of my friends  LA Washington ,the rapper "he said ,smiling ,helping instigate the law.
"I wasn't aware that rappers made laws these days.." i said


"Oh spare me," he said."You are too aware of such things..it's a problem..a problem and not and very much again the NEw Way's primal Solution,you are in big trouble.your soul is in danger ,he said,handling me a  New Way pamplet that featured a man sitting in a Lazy boy with what i took to be a virtual reality helmet on his head strapped to a chair  ,flames all around him..upon skimming the pamphlet i saw that it was simply a 7th day adventist tract...imagine,the nerve of Tru Christie sending me cortextual visual overlays during my therapy..
..Snap out of it ,"the Dr. said.
as if knowing .Without Knowing.
Speaking Without
Speaking.
.."yes rapper LA washington ,whose wife was grazed by a bullet during  some march or other by a "cray cray" who spoke and wrote of hearing and seeing things..
...LA Washington is helping get the new law up on it's feet that people who speak of things or write of things like nano particles and hearing and seeing things can be ..presumed to have violent ..outburst in advance.it's called The Forethought Surmise initiative.
ever heard of it...?"
well you should  familiarize yourself not only with The New Way that in your file you write so indignantly about but moreso the New Laws the New Way is instigating to get RUINERS such as you put away
so in this regard ,for both of our sakes.,”he said looking around the office, like a bad actor who appeared in two episodes of "Full House" emoting ,pre method acting style ,as if in a silent movie or something that "the walls have ears"
he lowers his voice to a whisper
,as if whatever “wall ear '.walls have ears' technology
was or is or would be not
would also not be sophisticated enuf to "pick up a whisper"..
"so if you are to go one  about hearing and seeing shit ..please .please speak of “IT “
 as either a thought disorder or as a metaphor ...."
his looks alter suddenly.
He has said something he should not have I
his face .ripples
some some crummy Sci -Fi flop on Fox that is canceled mid season.
You know “the drill”, the “morph”
the cosmetic downgrade.
The shape shift *.Maybe you've seen it in others .And pretended you didn't.


.The Reigns,The Corrections ....
i am not" the only  Cain in town."..


he touches his face ,instinctively
i force my eyes to focus on an oversized "Donnie Darko" poster on the far wall.
I turn back and he's returned to "better form".
"drank the kool aid " indeed.Second sight from just plain old DMT and ketamine my ass.
This “dude” is “apped ' to the gills.
I like him more already.
who wants to know anyone with out “apps”?Who has no intraneural mentors .and thus.No Idea..
“it takes one to know one” I think
and
than quickly 'rethink"
as the last thought implies I am “one of them” and not just a Husk .a child man .a trainee.who is not even “good enough” to be allowed in the state of califormya..i am such a disgrace.
The dr. touches his temples.
Another instinct.move.a bad one.who trained this guy.
I recall he has a herniated disc.
I assume a “fed up” mandler .”did this to him”it's 'what they do..
they know what they're doing
who am I to think otherwise.
I know “this without knowing” as they say and reaLIZE E.V.A.N.N has Imaprted me this knowledge
I say nothing.nor do I do some “hammy “ give away
of my interface by touching my temples like some Las Vegas mind reading master
I feel bad for thinking myself superior.
Mainly because I am attracted to the Dr. and don't want to ....
my mentors are parlaying my "graPHS" TO
my -
"new Love interest," the dr says,looking even better than he did when one second ago...
still i saw “the morph”the downgrade and cannot help wondering if this happens too often.
If the dr has too many issues that make his mandlers go cosmo on him.
It's embarrassing.
Morphing.
Or being with one who morphs ..whose looks flicker back and forth too often
I am graphed that “it's not how we do it in dixie,And my hostility and suspiscion against “my friends” at Dome shows in my presuming that the nano cosmetic alterations are “done “ without “love” or “like some fuckin freakshow”-
even trained professionals
ground bound "mentors" have trouble with capitualted living
 the sudden 'shape shift"
the nano particle displacement
solidified  not only "The Way" was not unique to my digressive transgressive thoughts
but others 'In the Improvement Movement"
surely the "looks" thing was meant for me to see
  Dr Delgado's mentors felt towards him speakin about things we do not speak of.
a rush of empathy poured into me
and i wondered if this feeling was induced in me
or my own
"it's all the same ," the Dr said,"gleaning my mind.."
his face doing a full 180 ,but this "morph" meant to bond us.
The dr  smiling ,yet still touching "his' face.
my empathy
even if induced by interface making me
more tethered to Dr Delgado
 also being "re-parented " by "The Process"
also in need of guidance to "mind his mandlers.and mind The New Way"of seeing being and "meaning"
I do "hope ' all this chatter of yours is only a thought disorder.and not some type of mutinous malarkey in any way against anything...I cannot have any clients the put The New Way in harm's way...
if he was to take me on and possible "see me" outside the office ,"you'd like that wouldn't you,huh.."
"no ," I said ,lying.
he gives me four small bags of crack,and 3 glass rose stems,saying he doesnt believe in psychiatric meds..and finds that,an herbal medicine like crack helps ,'jew-ie egghead " types who have little or no respect for intraneural or 'ground bound”"Mandling" Crack cocaine often helps a “foundling” be more submissive to "the teachings of Gary Rainy"
A Foundling.I think? Is that what they call human experiment.human monkeys where this guy studies at.I feel a zip a .tingling .a “morph” coming on and realize either by my own cognitions or THEIRS that I am ,as usual ,not thinking right.
I reach my hand out to receive the pockets
and he slaps my hand
“I am kidding”
he says
and than winks.handing me the “meds”
“Gary Rainy believes in “breaking the rules” He says,”when the Rulers are broken”
"I have a thought disorder is what I thought we agreed upon...and to speak of my alleged problem as metaphor.."
"I am testing you ..but I am reading you..life ,at least this life is a series of tests.and worth it.For the next one...life everlasting ...perfected cognitive function  and emotional consciousness through assisted intelligence..But first the Big Pay back.he said ,unbuttoning his pants...

*"The Smallness of Beauty"
Nanotechnology is a hybrid science combining engineering and chemistry. Atoms and molecules stick together because they have complementary shapes that lock together, or charges that attract. As millions of these atoms are pieced together by nanomachines, a specific product  takes shape. The goal of nanotechnology is to manipulate atoms individually and place them in a pattern to produce a desired structure. . Nanorobots work at a level a thousand times more precise than the sharpest scalpel. By working on such a small scale these particles of intention can be used to change one'sphysical appearance. If nano particles are  programmed correctly they can be used  to  rearranging your atoms...and also "fill in or subtract"in this manner and change  the shape of your ears, nose, eye color or any other physical feature you wish to alter....

• The Ethics of Nanotechnology - Chen, Andrew  2004