2 Days Before the Shooting

the Reasons kept changing ...
as if to remove any reasoning left in him
but this they assured him was to make him unburdened by self

exercises only for his own good to help him lose ego and the self will which according to Gary Rainy was only a euphemism for selfishness.

as if to go with the more and focused pointlessness of the tether

people around him began speaking to him in riddles and nonsense
as the Communion now did

it seemed to him that the people were being helpful

as if they knew the reasons of the Great Entity
and at first he latched upon these people who seemed not just to Know about his gift of seeing and hearing and sensing
but they seemed gifted themselves

"They Too he assumed had gone through "the trials"

there was no mocking or teasing in their manner of talking to him .
The riddles and nonsense he assumed were extra help
to teach him how to think without words in his head
think without thoughts
to be an empty vessel for the New Way.

From the various people who made sure he knew that they knew what he was going through
and what he was thinking
He recieved bolstering
There was a pride behind the fear of being part of The New Way...and
the unsaid "shhhhh" like quality to their way of acting towards him
That the communion of mind to mind
was a Secret
made the difficulty of this odd type of communication seem all the more sacred..

But the intrusion was so often humiliating and terifying
And endless
And the reasons for the tether kept changing.

and worst of all everything that was imparted upon him The New Way that was mystical and beautiful were
presented only to be removed..
it seemed
to be shown and felt and heard only so it would hurt more when these visions and thoughts and stories were taken away
and replaced by induced fear and stories and visions placed into him upon him so dreadful and terrifying
that the DUPE feel apart on himself
and soon in spite of the secret
he wondered and than he knew that nothing except something man made could be so cruel
no other worldly life form could be come advanced with this much pettiness
of hate and control and power.
like a puppet pulled wrong he fell apart
trying to leaves pieces of parts
here ..there...online and off..

the Proxy noticed as his own belief in the Communion being mystical fell apart the Communion became more pragmatic
and next the
The "Treason Reason " is why he kept his mouth shut -at first
but this was before his mouth shut or open did not reverberate with dystonic tenseness
the dopamine in his system unable to re -regulate itself
the gland responsible for dopamine tapped too much by
wireless.

His body had become a prison quite apart from the sounds and visions
rigid ..ceaseless tremor
he no longer moved the same ...slept the same
dreampt the same

The "Treason Reason" fell away and away
..the DUPE'S research discovered that
"Brain Research /Brain Map "
Direct Energy Weapons Testing was being done worldwide ..

this was not about defense the DUPE realized
but learning how to make people defenseless.

this testing ...done in nearly every country in the world ...same scripts...same visions ...same suicide rate

if something was being done all over the world ..how did it have anything to do with what he'd been told..?