i have to explain why my story matters. I don't matter. But my my story does.

My story is about TIMELINES - and the ? need to share about oneself.

and how this went haywire.

and this wiring is not just effecting me - but so many people who are like me 

with mental health issues. - and a great deal of people getting mental health issues from 

sharing online 

and - what 

what comes of it - unless one uses it 

for what is for ?

what in the fuck's name it is for is beyond me and has always been 

I was sold as a mentally ill person who happens to draw and paint before I understand 

how this would effect me both online and off.

I would never in a million years have divulged my mental health issues before I was told

a backstory would help sell my work in 2004 / 2003...

I was on SSI then and probably receiving about 620 dollars a month to literally exist on

of course i could not afford to live alone 

I was always a homeless man living off the kindness (?) of others

there is no kindness in a situation like that only resentment on both ends

and when one is younger there is only what i learned is called survival sex 

such a  humiliating and soul destroying  background do so many men with mental health issues and no family support have - thrown out into the street to be had by anyone who takes them in.

The groups homes , shelters and long term housing services provided by the sate are awful 

and quite simply one freezes on the street in winter and burns in the summer. NOTHING has changed for 

the mentally ill person without means 

they are either rounded up and placed in mental facility or group home or forced to live with people who want something from them they are in no mental state to handle