too many days

depression

a complete lack of interest

in "this game"
which is really a LONG UNTREATED psychosis


there is no point in seeing a shrink - again

a. the meds they use to treat my issues I cannot take

I already have tardive dyskineisa and tardive dystonia


b. Oh god my entire life - it seems - has been spent talking to some therapist


+ and LOOK where we are


IN MOMMY'S BASEMENT!@!! at age 51

i cannot stand this...

++++++ this sounds cold...
am i a caregiver..?

am i supposed to stick around ?
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I am, INSANE and miserable