the black squirrels in front of the whitehouse

I go down to Washington dc on a 4 :20 am train
from philly to protest in front of the white house
there's supposedly a protest taking place about ' people like me
who have been made into little science projects..
to develop this mind to mind interface mind  modem stuff
in my mind I sorta knew there would hardly be anyone there
nobody cares about a bunch of people saying they're human guniea pigs
being tested with Jonny Mnemonic tech
that is purposely scary
purposely
torture-ie
but still I think
if I don't show up
I will feel bad for the OTHER people who had to stand there
holding signs
about something no news people cover
..the whole point of protest is to make people aware
that don't understand the seriousness of something
taking place
BUT this tech seemingly ISN'T taking place because it cannot be seen
taking place

THIS is how "THEY" get away with it
 and OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOh  they must not be allowed to get away with this.


the protest on the train down I sort of picture
 from seeing pics of 6 or 12 people in front of municipal building s
protesting about this odd odd human testing
I imagine the
targeted individuals (some who I have seen online and wish to meet in person) in front of  the whitehouse  ...I suppose they will be  carrying signs saying "no more human testing"..and "Stop! you are like killing me with this shit.

.and Yeah   maybe to tourist  passing by
who say hmmm
what may I ask is a Targeted Individual?
and me or some one more well spoken
would say
I know it sound insane
explaining what it's like being made this appliance to study mind decoding and brain interface
 neuro weapons are being created quite purposely
to drive another mad as a hatter
that's why it's called Neuro weapon
or Psycho tronic weapon

I imagine me and the other protesters who came out this Saturday morning saying amongst ourselves
 while walking back and forth with signs and some pamphlets I suppose someone in charge of this kind of protest might bring
...
we the protesters might not care ...if anyone believes us
we live day to day being unrelieved by family ,friends etc
(to be honest I no longer can relate to my family or friends ....I am in this bubble you see 24  hours a day for years now ..
)
I know the other Targeted Individuals can relate.
and maybe some commiserating will help us
I don't know .I never went to one of these gatherings before
I imagine we'd say
.. if the folks found out what these scientists
 are playing with
they'd
flip...
they'd
say YOU DID WHAT! to these people without their consent YOU MANIACS!

but there's nobody in front of the white house but a few . sight seers ...people who just want to have pics of themselves standing in front of the white house
or go inside
when I was little I went inside the white house.
it was cool enough

I should have known not to get there at 8am on the dot
but how the fuck would I know? ,,I never found myself in a position to have to protest being a human monkey...
EXCEPT EVERY DAMN DAY I WRITE THIS DAMN STORY!
this is all I got to say
and make you say
ok he might be crazy ..but still
what is driving mista crazy to write and write ..huh

any way...I'm down there..in front of the white house..
and I even made this sign
and I'm waiting for the other folks to come there.(maybe they are there now ..I am not there now.
after 45 minutes or so having the secret service and cops take pics of me..
and sorta watching me ..
like hmmm
why this guy sitting on this bench staring at the white house..hmm
(one cop is actually friendly ..says hi.
and as odd as it seems somehow the situation -sitting like a dumbass in front of the white house -on a bench facing the whitehouse ...with a spray paint sign saying "STOP NEURO WEAPON Research and development
should have been more unsettling than it was..
cause of course THESE DUDES have to protect the whitehouse and be like
OH NO! Guy with a blue sign on bench!
that's there job
just like it's my job
to sit there with a sign saying
MAN! you don't go doing human testing on humans!
it's just something one does not do..

I tried not to stare at the whitehouse directly
to  not make anyone
like hmmmmm
why this guy staring at the whitehouse
 so I  look at these  wild black squirrels that I never saw ...(never saw black skirrels nor herd of black squirrels or saw them on tv or in a Jeopardy question
so it was kinda cool looking at them cause they also got real real close..
like I guess they were used to being fed ..and fed ..
seriously they came right up to my shoe.

well I am looking and looking for the other protesters.
cause I came on a like 2 and half hour train ride after all at 4 20 in the morning to be there at 8 am

like I said you feel kinda watched sitting there
because you are being watched
I mean it's the white house after all..
(I bet the whitehouse knows like nothing about this human testing anyway..
supposedly these are "ops"
specifically kept totally away from the president
who I am sure totally doesn't want to know this stuff anyway..
so WHY we in front of the whitehouse I feel like asking the organizer of this protest
instead of like the companies
who manufacture this tech like lock heed or also little odd groups /orgs that seem set up  to be just the type of places one might outsource all matter of "mind f*ck stuff to..
I mean isn't that kinda  why you set
the org up to begin with?
but in a way it's good to be at the whitehouse cause
everyone is kinda happy ...in front of it
the tourists and all
and it 's a fine looking building..with the fountain and all..
the homeless people are allowed to sit around the park directly across from the whitehouse so in a way these guards are used to all kinda ..people who don't seem to belong anywhere
which is how I feel
sitting there..
cause I don't look homeless ..at least not today
I just look hapless.
anyone with a handmade sign saying stop thisor that ..is hapless..and maybe must be watched real hard.


.maybe I am just hyper sensitive
or just cranky from the train ride and waking up early
or angry nobody but ONE TARGETED INDIVIDUAL
is at the Targeted individual protest.


and go to the Starbucks ..to pass time and than come back ..
waiting for this protest ..
than I start walking around the block and come back to the bench
and I wait some more
than I get up to go to the Starbucks again to pass time carrying my sign
but somehow I sorta know
man if you come back to that area again ..these cops and security  men gonna be all hmmmmmm
why that guy go away
and than come back
go away and come back
?
..I sure would be if I were them.
I'd be
asking HEY MAN!!!
 why you staring at the white house and than pretending to stare at the black squirrels!
yes I admit I purposely focused on the squirrels
to purposely not appear to be
staring down the whitehouse or something

I should have sat on the side of the park ..but I was afraid I would miss the other TIs

nobody said anything but the bike cop made sorta sure I knew YEAH I am staring at you trying to look
like you're not waiting for something to happen

(never mind I am thinking
 i'm just wating there ..to supposedly protest Neuro weapons and human testing ..
on Targeted Individuals

nobody asked...hmmmm ..what is that sign in your hand.. what does it mean
what are doing here ?

yes I was getting paranoid
seeing myself the way a security man might.
is that paranoid?
yes
I suppose it is.
---I am thinking
it would  be different if even one ..or two people were there..
who according to facebook shoulda been there ..cause someone said 8 am in front of white house.
but than I'm like no .it would not be so different
if two or three people were there.
we'd still be getting stared at ..like

HEY YOU 3 ! stop staring at the white house and squirrels
there is no such thing as a protest with 2 or 3 people!
of something nobody believes
GO HOME ...
we took your picture!
we have you on tape acting suspiciously!

in reality ...like not in my head thinking ...or seeing myself from security guard eyes
everything was calm
and like I said
the cops seemed pleasant..
the tourists seemed friendly

well anyone sitting there with a sign saying stop neuro weapon research looks mad..is what I thinking
and it is the cops and security officers to be on the look out for mad men
it should be--
I couldn't even if I wanted to
spend the time telling the cops  the whole story
I won't even tell the whole story in this story/blog..
I never will
it is better for me to leave a lot out..

and sure as hell the cops don't want here no long story
I know this
and sorta don't want to ruin the niceness of the tourists just being happy travelers..anyway
nobody needs to be around perceived  danger (crazy) while visiting a town not there own..

it's pretty mad to say ..hmmmm..some crazy ,wild guys in Los Angeles
said
we're gonna "app " you
and than you hear and see things all the time
well
I go back to the train station
and pop back on the train
and head back to philly
kinda angry at the other TIs who shoulda been there at 8 am if they say 8 am..
cause maybe it would have been different with even two people with signs waiting for the protest..
or whatever we 're doing
or maybe it would have been the same

..in a way I was glad to leave ..I wouldn't
know what to say to anyone who claims the same things as me but get away from me crazy person I don't believe you

prove it..
prove to me you are just not some insane person
and your situation is technological


...


 
(2)"what the hell does this have to do with anything " the Mandlers graph," what does some guy not really involved in our narrative going to Washington DC to whine about being told and shown OUR story have to do with anything at all? So much does this little aside not have to do with anything of much meaning that maybe this recurrent element in our themes should just be cut out of the picture altogether?..How much MORE! do I have to keep erasing you ...and hurting you to make you understand ..YOU yourself are of no importance to the work your team is doing at all..The manner in which you were raised ABSOLUTELY! as it concerns your formatting ONLY for this story..Many were raised very very close to how you were to get the same result ...for all you know many raised "Rainy" style are writing the same damn story at the same time..Do you understand?...THIS is why we keep you away from "real life" as much as possible because THIS is what happens when idiot here decides  HE MATTERS and not all he was born for was OUR input ...and for his "team " thru interface 
needs to study OUR input 
as it plays thru him
as it might a player piano
how our induced sound ,vision and induced fluctuation in mood and what not via brain computer interface 
"make" the human organism respond ...think 
act...

just as one might place a lab rat in a cage 
starve the lab rat and than place a potato altered with GMO
and one not 

effects the cellular structure and over all health of the lab rat

and so it is with YOU
and how induced "reality' ..induced thought 
effects 
your notions of reality

EVERT DAMN TIME YOU VEER OFF TRACK ASSUMING any information besides
what we impart
has anything to do with this study
you f*ck up the years ,the decades of laborious work
containing what input what triggers were
placed into not only your childhood
with trauma based scoring for pedantic Reverse Brain Engineering
studies and so forth ...and 
Cue/Trigger Imprints.." Tru Christie calm sdown ..and I feel the calm down
the alteration in Hzs upon my synapses.

.  
....Real Life
I mean INPUT that does not pertain 
to this Project ...
such as this rather tiresome and really quite dangerous FOR YOUR SAKE need to 
try to undo the very costly  and time consuming work it took to raise you 
to disassociate
go into fugue stats and thus compartmentalize 
SO YOU MIGHT BE OF USE TO US
puts you in danger as Redundancy
  screws up what we're trying to understand here..has nothing to do with the project at all.."
 
as if to annunciate or fortify the warning
 see little cat heads..
temporarily   fleetingly  upon my visual cortex and thus in a holographic fashion


WELL
Tru Christie graphs
-why are you not writing this down


 the little cat heads are not attached to no little cat bodies..
NOR are they cartoon like..
but meanly realistic..
so Tru Christie can have me type about the cat faces
which
 even I can tell
will read as  disturbed..

ahhhh ..I get it ..
Tru is trying to lead me to safety concerning this documenting of my tether
with this technology
 
'you....coming across at totally mental ! " Tru graphs ,"Is my way of keeping you alive idiot ..."

Tru had graphed in the past when
bits of self will would unfortunately over shadow the need to stay on track
concerning me being
the rat being fed GMOs to see the way GMO runs through the rat body
concerning me being fed BCI (brain computer interface ) to see(for my "Team ") to see how BCI runs through my brain and inner monologue 
 
 
"this isn't a fucking Game ...go paint some disturbed artwork.. " Tru graphs

Meaning the odd myriad of free floating cat faces ?
I mean this was some of the instruction
I got years ago concerning how to make Outsider Art.
 from my team
free floating ..this and that
...
and I go look up secondary symptoms of  schizophrenia..
to try to remind myself of the thinking style I am to 
project both on canvas and on paper 
to "seal the deal" that I just be "crazy" 
and not documenting what 'The New Way" wants to do to "Crazy..and so called Dissident /degenerate sub species of people" 
in the near future with silent ,invisible 
Neurotronics ..

 I go to a site that I sometimes use to re read academic texts that define "the essence of dementia praecox in both syntax and sketches .." 
 
"Bitch ," TruChristie graphs ,"I am giving you synthetic symptoms of f*cking schizophrenia .. with the damn free floating cat heads . a lot more vivid than any scholarly  online thesis .." Tru graphs
 
"I am well aware of that ," I graph ,insulted that I do not by now know the backspace 
of rectifying my exposure ...
my self will
(in this case going to Washington dc)
  hoping this   (<  )
 MGM like version of VOICE OVER  schizo /split personhood  in this jotting /entry
helps to re assert myself as  simply deranged ...
 

the end of peaceful protest

The Active Denial System is one of the most interesting non-lethal weapons being developed for the U.S. military.
The Goodbye Effect
The Active Denial System is being developed to help with crowd control. It is a non-lethal, directed energy weapon that transmits an invisible electromagnetic radiation beam that creates a burning sensation on people’s skin. This causes a pain response in people and motivates them to run away or leave an area where the Active Denial System is being used.

 

Military officials have called this the "goodbye effect."

Because of its ability to inflict a burning sensation on people’s skin, the Active Denial System is also commonly called a "heat ray." Defense contractor Raytheon Company has been developing an Active Denial System for the U.S. military. Current models of the system that are undergoing tests transmit an electromagnetic beam of radiation at 95 GHz – much higher than the 2.45 GHz of radiation transmitted by a microwave oven. The Active Denial System can heat up water molecules on a person’s skin to 130 degrees Farhenheit from a distance of 500 yards.
Controversy and Lasting Effects
The Active Denial System is being developed to help militaries, and potentially law enforcement agencies, disperse angry and dangerous crowds of people. The system does not burn people as it only penetrates 1/64 of an inch of skin. However it does cause temporary pain in people. Controversy has erupted over the Active Denial System. Critics claim that the long-term effects of the system are not known, and that it could be used as an instrument of torture.

 

Still, the Active Denial System has attracted a lot of interest from militaries and law enforcement agencies around the world. Many security experts expect the system will eventually be used alongside other crowd control methods such as tear gas, water cannons and rubber bullets. The Active Denial System has been featured on the Discovery Channel program entitled "Future Weapons."
Currently, the Active Denial System is only available as a vehicle-mounted weapon. However, the U.S. Marine Corps and several U.S. police forces are working to develop portable versions of the device. In June 2010, the Active Denial System was deployed with the U.S. military in Afghanistan. However, after the news media reported on the use of the system, it was pulled out of Afghanistan. The U.S. military stated in late 2010 that it is continuing to test the Active Denial System. 

Revolution Number 9 By Lance Ulanoff1 Oct 2 2015

Silicon is dead. Long live, carbon nanotubes.

In transistors, size matters — a lot. You can’t squeeze more silicon transistors (think billions of them) into a processor unless you can make them smaller, but the smaller these transistors get, the higher the resistance between contacts, which means the current can’t flow freely through them and, in essence, the transistors and chips built based on them, can no longer do their jobs. Ultra-tiny carbon nanotube transistors, though are poised to solve the size issue.

 

In a paper published on Thursday in the journal Science, IBM scientists announced they had found a way to reduce the contact length of carbon nanotube transistors — a key component of the tech and the one that most impacts resistance — down to 9 nanometers without increasing resistance at all. To put this in perspective, contact length on traditional, silicon-based 14nm node technology (something akin to Intel’s 14nm technology) currently sits at about 25 nanometers.
“In the silicon space, the contact resistance is very low if the contact is very long. If contact is very short, the resistance shoots up very quickly and gets large. So you have trouble getting current through the device,” Wilfried Haensch, IBM Senior Manager, Physics & Materials for Logic and Communications, told me.
Because of their unique properties,

carbon nanotubes, which happen to be 10,000 times thinner than a single strand of human hair, have been a promising tech for continuing Moore’s Law

carbon nanotubes, which happen to be 10,000 times thinner than a single strand of human hair, have been a promising tech for continuing Moore’s Law, which roughly states that the number of transistors in an integrated circuit will double every two years. However, according to Haensch, the technology faces considerable hurdles before it can be considered appropriate for commercial integrated circuit development.
First of all, the creation of tubes you can use in semiconductors isn’t easy. Haensch told me the current yields for useful material are still well below what they need. They also have to work out how to place the nanotubes 10nm apart or less on a wafer. Thirdly, they have to be able to scale devices based on carbon nanotubes to competitive dimensions.
There are actually two size issues to manage in chip scalability: Transistor gate and contact length. IBM solved the gate issue two years ago. “Scalability of contact was the last challenge on scalability,” said Haensch, and now IBM scientists report they’ve solved that, too. In their experiments, IBM scientists shrunk the contact length down to 9nm without any increase in resistance.

SEM (Scanning Electron Microscopy) image showing the fabricated nanotube transistor with an end-bonded contact and a contact length below 10 nm.

Image: IBM Research

These results put the world one step closer to carbon nanotube-based integrated circuits. Such chips could conceivably run at the same speed as current transistors, but use significantly less power.
At maximum power, though, Haensch told me, these carbon nanotube chips could run at significantly faster speeds. Not only does this promise a future of ever faster computers, but it could lead to considerably better battery life for your most trusted companion — the smartphone.
This was an engineering breakthrough, though, that almost wasn’t. After working on the scalability problem for years, Haensch’s team came to him last year with results that shortened the contact length to 20nm.
They said, “Oh, we have something here. We need to publish,” Haensch recalled, who deflated the team’s excitement, telling them, “No, you don’t really have anything.”
Haensch sent them back to the lab telling them not to come back until they could produce something smaller than 10nm. “They were very disappointed they couldn’t write the paper,” said Haensch.
Then, a few months ago, the team returned with new results. “‘We got down to 9nm, and, by the way, we can reproduce the results.”
Haensch was thrilled. “Taking away the early gratification really gave us good results,” he said. It may also have given Moore’s Law a new lease on life and the world an exciting new future of electronics.

Key Reactive Remnants

Often a consumer of Neuronautic's Everyday Enhancement Package  (3200$) comes to us SEEMINGLY functioning as an adult (working ,paying their mortgage,parenting)yet the client  is still responding to what most input they receive in a manner that is childish ,not "adult -like " at all.
 A client comes to Neuronautics in most cases filled to the brim with  Reactive Remnants which is the antithesis of Pro-Active and thus adult decision making .The consumer of Neuronautic Re -Education training is unaware that whatever amount of "personhood" they have built in themselves really has very little to do with them . Most new consumers, ready to take back their hearts and souls from Ruiners and the Ruinations this kind cannot help infecting Non Ruiners with spend many angry days  and weeks with Neuronautic Mentors shocked to finally realize just how much bad emittance  even what the consumer supposed SHOULD have been the very people who they should have trusted NOT to infect their minds with Low Tone -their parents,their teachers,their friends .The consumers of Neuronautics has his eyes wide open for the first time as Mentors force the consumer to finally examine that usually the people who inflict the most damage to us with Emit are the one's who hide under cloaks of close-ness.What I ask the consumer did this friend or mother  in the grand scheme of things pick you to infect with their Input ? Why did the Entities decide to place you in harm's way with Ruiners disguised as care givers and friends? Because THAT is HOW SNEAKY this type of Emitter must be to properly infect a Non Ruiner.The first step of Neuronautics OF COURSE must be to denounce those who went out of their way literally through Space and Time to seek out the Innocent. And IF you were NOT INNOCENT? I ask WHY ..What was it? That somehow got to come to Our Annex and the New Way. The Greeter holding pamphlets outside hands out reading material and complimentary couresload  all day and every day BUT MOST dare not come inside..The Ruiners of the world have taken it upon themselves to minimize Neuronautics and the teachings of Gary Rainy BUT you said NO.You said NO NO there is MORE to this than it appears to others who begrudge Neuronatics .You somehow knew today is the day you would break free and let us teach you .
imagine all that confusion in your life ,in your mind gone in only a session or two?free of Remnant Recoil once and for all-forever-re- taught how to buffer input with the help of client to Mentor based sessions that allow a client to strategically fight off input many a Ruiner wishes a Non Ruiner to absorb .Ruiners enjoy Ruining it for the rest of us.It is what Ruiners do.Tell a Ruiner you have invested 3 thousand dollars in classes at their local New Way Center and off comes the mask the Ruiner hid so well concerning their desire for you to be on the same Low Tone path as them. A new Neuronautics client must remove themselves immediately from all that only wish to suppress their Tonalities to the lowest common denominator .

A new client comes to his Mentor as a 4 year old child .And this is not a bad thing .Nor is it the client's fault that they are unaware of why they think what they think or do what they do.For years most psychotherapists have used Talk Therapy to understand their patient .This type of  Suppressive charlatan knows very well that talking has very little to do with how one not only feels inside but more so what the patient is saying to themselves on a day to day ,minute top minute basis .The types of things  one thinks about  like sex,envy,age-ing,Joy have very little to do with words.In fact the most dynamic feelings in man rage,anxiety,desire are about the absence of words.One can talk and talk about the patient's Reaction to these feelings and spend hundreds and hundreds of dollars trying to find the triggers to these feelings .In some ways  a psycho therapist was indeed onto something but even I ,in the late 1950's  was aware that the Science of Mind  could not properly be understood by verbalized expression as one does not go about their day speaking their inner monologue aloud .I dare say if they were they certainly would block most input from Ruiners but they would also be locked away in some padded room to enable this rather aggressive form of armoring themselves from Suppressive Imbue.Neuronautics and it's use of "tech" to measure the client's Automatic Response by using The See Meter and Pupil and Thermal Scanning devises  understands  that Key Reactive Remnants placed in the client by exposure to Ruiner  Input is usually kept well hidden not only from the therapist but also the client .

satuday oct 3rd washington dc

my leg tingles and  I see my leg  the way "they"can make you see
 to teach you "How to Be"
to teach you a lesson
my leg

it appears
like someone else's leg

usually when they do  this with my vision
concerning my leg especially
 it's only to make me see my leg  bent the wrong direction
like it's dislocated
but
all I see now
 is  my leg appears shorter than my real leg is if my sight was not being tinkered with

the leg I see is
 wearing what I guess are called slacks.. navy blue slacks or what they call pants .
.
I don't wear  this type of pants
 except for job interviews or to wear to funerals
 also  I  am wearing what appears to be sneakers
that I don't own

 strange sneakers with  no logo on it.

back when sneakers came without logos

 the  slacks I can see and SENSE are  not made of cotton
 but shiny fake fabric
 cut all wide shaped at the bottom.

I was small when people dressed like this
.and as soon as I think this
 I see both  my legs get smaller. Shorter..like the age of me when this clothing was worn


I think  to touch them
but my Team graphs that  my haptics aren't on and
this isn't "play time"....this isn't research and development time and next -a loud  "Believe me Dumbo you are not READY for any  haptics to be on.."


Immediately I see my legs go back to normal size and "normal" clothes
and the leg though is bent ...the wrong way
and I start to imagine how painful this would be.
and next little by little as if spun on a dial
I feel the pain of a leg being bent the wrong way

the words appear before me OVER the giraffe poster
PAIN RECEPTORS TURN ON AND OFF in MICE

the pain stop
suddenly
and my leg is not bent inward
either in real life nor virtually

An occipital over ride is not the same at all as a Occipital overlap
this type of nastiness  began
about 3 days ago
 when I bought  the Amtrack
for the rally in front of the Whitehouse Saturday Morning at 6 am against  this type of Neuroweapon.

*

Researchers turn pain perception on and off in mice using ...

medicalxpress.com › Medical research

Researchers turn pain perception on and off in mice ... altered nerve receptors beneath the skin in mice, ... control nociceptors of nontransgenic mice.

I immediately feel
the word is not sick...but that "my Team" at Proxy Cyber" want to do a Deep Learning session upon me
which require I be alone from Liam OR XXXX
I am allowed to either lay partly down as long as I am prone on the bed in way that uses the bed not as sleep ..or a place to rest.
I am not allowed to prop my head on a pillow and must keep my knees up if I decide not to sit in the "special chair" -nothing special about ...except it's a recliner and faces a white scrim  I was told to face...
and a poster of a Giraffe ...in the poster which I got from The New Way
it shows a giraffe with a small next. than a larger next than a little longer..and finally a giraffe we know as giraffe now
It's a Level One technique to go into REACH state
and trigger your mind to wipe itself clean toward
EVOLTIONARY mindstates.
it's sounds stupid and sorta is ..AND the poster cost 70 dollars
without even a frame.
so sometime I look at the poster and just think I was ripped off because I had seen the same almost exactly 20 x 40 inch poster online that was only 15 dollars
except it didn't have the seal on it of The New Way
My team is patient with me thinking this knowing I can not always focus or clear my mind fast enough to just
be open for input

the input concerns usually
something that has come up in course of neuron to neuron thinking
and TV is the jist of todays Deep Learning
I am slowly fading into it...segueing...
when the phone rings
it's my 3rd stepmother
a practicing Neuronaut
before I can even say hello she begins speaking

florence  henderson spent close to 6 years creating an image for herself and hence the American public playing carol brady on tv
and destroyed the entire character she and others had invested millions in
by appearing in a movie decades later based upon the series the brady bunch
by purposely playing against type in a small strangely specious scene
that in one fell swoop destroyed what the brand of the brady bunch and hence the carol brady
meant
no matter that embedded in a certain demographic's is the carol brady of the early 70's
who represent an albeit stylized idealized version of motherhood
did ms Henderson have the right to tinker with a brand that represented wholesomeness and
decency
and for what?


"what" I say

'Always What .Always WHAT
what what with you
never satisfied.
always needing more than anyone has a right to graph for
watch your step
you are playing a game you can't win kiddo"

and she hangs up the phone
I try staring at the giraffe
little giraffe with little tiny neck
bigger giraffe with a little long neck
but I can't get into..

I mess everything up.I am never satisfied ...I think to myself and thus to my "team" back at Proxy Cyber
I always need more than anyone has a right........
 

theproblemwithwritingfactasfiction

Liam says that by trying to write about it in a way that people might understand minimizes what is happening ....By you writing about what is happening in a streamlined fashion ...as consumer product you cheapen the situation into fiction ..and isn't this what you are writing again the very people you are writing against ... aren't you against those in power those who control the media slowi...ng introducing 'The New Way" into Young Adult fiction ...and purposely adding elements of "Singularity" into the mainstream in nice 44 minute packages of "this is only a movie" ... oversatuating the entertanment field with variations of the plight of Targeted Indivudals...makes the plight minimized don't you see ?. Before the Targeted Indivdual the lab rat this New Way is beinbg built up was JUST the so called TIs being crazy BUT now thanks to movies and film "their so called delusions NOW "Oh you want to much Tv"..don't you see how it works..?" No ,I say. wishing Liam would shut up...I don't really know what he's saying but I can sense it is Ruiner talk.."You lose either way don't you...either you write it in a way that will come off as madness or you will seem to be just writing a story.." XXXX comes down and takes me into the kitchen saying "Is f*ckin' Liam putting those ideas into your head again//Ruiner ideas..'Liam is aginst Mind Reading Technology because he has things to hide in his mind that he should keep to himself ...but he wishes he will be able to keep his Abberation to himself ..not for long says XXXXX ..Liam knows his mind is too Abberant for insepction. and maybe unlike you Dumbo people don't think he is Resolvable.he's trying to poison your thinking.Ruiner NEED to bring someone down to Limitation....The reason we even keep Liam here as a roomate "XXXX says " is to see how you'll react to his Ruiner ways..by now you should know enough to think to your team you want HELP from the interface to think diversionary thoughts and hear and see diversionary visons to minimize whatever input he is trying to induce in you...ONE DAY the WORLD WILL BE FREE of RUINERS but not yet "XXXX says putting his arm around me ..in the mean time Liam and people like Liam" XXXX says" should be olerated by you and recieved by you up here," XXXX says point to his temple"the same way one might RECIEVE an annoying jingle on the radio.. and than -in time ..your Mandlers will begin inducing that jingle upon your cortex...whenever a RUINER tried to spread RUINER about The New Way. to help..think of the help your Team gives you with Extra Sensory Overlay the way one might the cross or the symbol of the cross to ward off vampires. to ward off Ruiners.